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[magicgranola]

Think I'm going to CTB today. It's Sunday for me in hawaii. Just felt like doing it today after waking up. I've been considering it since around 2019-2020. My method is SN. I'm going to take a double dose of painkillers. I also have some weed to help with the anxiety since I don't have meto. There is a bathroom in the house that my family barely uses. I'm going to do it in there because for some reason I find it a peaceful place. It's also where my uncle overdosed in. It's very quiet and relaxing. My dad started putting potted plants everywhere in the house so I think I'm going to also take some of them and place them in the bathroom with me. Being surrounded by a lot of plants helps make me feel relaxed too. My dad and uncle were always into growing. I would have gone to a forest to ctb but I'd rather do that with someone else because I feel a little unsafe going alone in the woods. Doing this in the bathroom with lots of plants around me is the next best thing. I know that may sound pathetic or sad to some people but to me it's comforting. This is probably my last post. I just joined this website a few weeks ago but the people I have met here have been supportive and helpful. I wish that everyone finds peace in their lives and if they choose to leave this world that they find peace as well. Thank you and take care.

-magicgranola / sickflowers(on discord)

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Nothing sad or pathetic about that at all. Being surrounded by the things that make you comfortable in your last moments sounds wonderful tbh. A lot of people don't have that option so definitely take advantage of that if you can. My only concern with doing it in the bathroom is you may end up throwing up and making some noise that gets you discovered. I think it's a bit risky.

However you decide to do it I wish you safe travels.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

 

[BringMeToLife]

Be safe

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[maniac116]

Goodbye magic granola.
I hope everything goes as you planned & find a place of love & peace

 

[magicgranola]

Nothing sad or pathetic about that at all. Being surrounded by the things that make you comfortable in your last moments sounds wonderful tbh. A lot of people don't have that option so definitely take advantage of that if you can. My only concern with doing it in the bathroom is you may end up throwing up and making some noise that gets you discovered. I think it's a bit risky.

However you decide to do it I wish you safe travels.

You're probably right that it is risky. I should probably just do it in my bedroom because it will be less likely for me to alert anyone or get caught while I'm in there when I throw up like you said (which is most likely that I will throw up considering how many people have ended up throwing up).

Thank you for understanding my situation and for the kinds words.

 

[Homulily]

I hope you find peace.

 

[magicgranola]

Goodbye magic granola.
I hope everything goes as you planned & find a place of love & peace

Thank you so much. Goodbye my friend. I wish you nothing but love and peace as well.

I hope you find peace.

Thank you my friend. I wish you peace and happiness.

Godspeed.

Thank you

Be safe

Thank you

I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

Thank you. I wish you nothing but peace and happiness my friend.

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

You're probably right that it is risky. I should probably just do it in my bedroom because it will be less likely for me to alert anyone or get caught while I'm in there when I throw up like you said (which is most likely that I will throw up considering how many people have ended up throwing up).

Thank you for understanding my situation and for the kinds words.

Ultimately it all depends on how aware the people in your house are. I fully agree with wanting to do it in a space you feel comfortable. If you truly think that can be that bathroom then I say go for it. I'd wait until everyone is fast asleep though regardless of if you do it in your bathroom or bedroom.

Take a minute to read this thread. It goes into more detail about what happened to this specific person after they took the SN but also the timeline for everything.

Plato'sCaveDweller SN Experience (Successful DMC SN Documentation)

Hey everyone, I want to take a moment to honor my friend, Plato'sCaveDweller. Although our friendship was brief, it was filled with unforgettable moments. They were thoughtful, caring, and incredibly intelligent. Plato's last request was for me to share a timeline of their passing, and I want...

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[magicgranola]

Thank you all so much for the kind words and support. I am really grateful for this community and all the supportive people in it. I wish that everyone finds peace, love and happiness.

 

[Zanmato]

I'm sorry if life pushed you to this limit!
I wish you the best.
Hope you can find your peace

 

[magicgranola]

I'm sorry if life pushed you to this limit!
I wish you the best.
Hope you can find your peace

Thank you so much. I wish you the best as well.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Wishing you peace and relief <3 we're here no matter what.

 

[magicgranola]

Wishing you peace and relief <3 we're here no matter what.

Thank you. I really appreciate it. Wishing you peace and happiness.

 

[sadlittleman32]

I hope you can finally find peace from this cruel world…have a safe journey!

 

[magicgranola]

I hope you can finally find peace from this cruel world…have a safe journey!

Thank you. I wish you peace as well.

 

[athiestjoe]

Have safe travels. With whatever you decide, I hope you found everything you are looking for and get peace & serenity.

 

[Ethel]

Goodnight
Sleep well S2

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

godspeed, hope you find peace

 

[fallingtopieces]

I feel burned out from life too. I'm so sorry life brought you to this moment. Should you feel the time isn't right, no shame in changing your mind. It doesn't hurt to write down what you took, and that methylene blue would be needed in case u require emergency services. We are here whatever you decide. Wishing you well

 

[Surai]

We will all and we will all fly soon enough

 

[sweetcreep]

i hope you find peace and i hope to find it too. it's going to be okay now.

 

[skatergirl]

But are u only using sn and painkillers?

Thank you all so much for the kind words and support. I am really grateful for this community and all the supportive people in it. I wish that everyone finds peace, love and happiness