Labeling my suicidal thoughts as intrusive?

[Mynameisnotimportant]

I've gone back to therapy and I've had (non serious) suicidal thoughts almost daily since 2018. I've been doing a lot of reflecting and it's been less serious and more a reaction to a sudden spike in stress levels rather than a rational thought pattern for the last 3ish years.

It's so hard that "I have to tell this customer that their dog groom is going to be $10 more because I spent half an hour dematting" turns into "just fucking kys"

these thoughts don't last more than a minute but it's kinda crazy I'm still having fallout from a only year long serious depression. I have no OCD behaviors and thoughts other than my brain thinking stress=sui thoughts

 

[roommate]

I have these aswell in very relatable way, tbh its the best to maybe label them and try to ignore them.
Intrusions are supposed to be just intrusions.. but yeah annoying as hell are they.

Maybe get professional help if you can.