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timechained

Experienced
Apr 15, 2025
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I know I don't want to live, I know I want to die; just wish there was an off switch. I am so glad to have found sanctioned suicide - a place of peace for the mind.

I have tried a lot of methods to no success, I have been hospitalised 3 times in the past year, and I am really just tired of people not understanding that LIVING IS THE PROBLEM.

I don't need to be told I am depressed, I already know I am BEACUSE I AM ALIVE AND I DONT WANT TO BE!

My worst suicide experience was amyl + isobutyl nitrite, definitely don't recommend it, my stomach literally burned for days and just breathing air made me want to puke copiously.

I am soo tired of living, I just want to die now, but I have no where close enough to practice full hang and SN is impossible to get. I have now settled on exit bag - seems peaceful.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,647
I understand as I just want to be gone as well, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, futile existence, I also feel so tired of it all and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the peace you search for.
 
Sunset Limited

Sunset Limited

I believe in Sunset Limited
Jul 29, 2019
1,352
An off switch would set us all free.
 
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Poiter1987

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Apr 14, 2025
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It shouldn't be this hard.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
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The number of people that would end themselves with an off switch would be overwhelming. Might even be the whole of humanity. The technicalities of CTB's are so complex That we need to sit and debate it.An off switch which would take all of the complexity out of it.
 
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BlueLock

BlueLock

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Nov 8, 2024
62
I wish there was an off switch on our belly buttons we could just flip to die. I'd for sure wouldn't survive past 13 but rn I really wish I had one.
The number of people that would end themselves with an off switch would be overwhelming. Might even be the whole of humanity. The technicalities of CTB's are so complex That we need to sit and debate it.An off switch which would take all of the complexity out of it.
Clancy Martin said in his book "How to not kill yourself" that all of humanity would be dead by now if it existed. I think he's right.
 
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BrokenMindAndBody

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May 31, 2024
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I know I don't want to live, I know I want to die; just wish there was an off switch. I am so glad to have found sanctioned suicide - a place of peace for the mind.

I have tried a lot of methods to no success, I have been hospitalised 3 times in the past year, and I am really just tired of people not understanding that LIVING IS THE PROBLEM.

I don't need to be told I am depressed, I already know I am BEACUSE I AM ALIVE AND I DONT WANT TO BE!

My worst suicide experience was amyl + isobutyl nitrite, definitely don't recommend it, my stomach literally burned for days and just breathing air made me want to puke copiously.

I am soo tired of living, I just want to die now, but I have no where close enough to practice full hang and SN is impossible to get. I have now settled on exit bag - seems peaceful.
I know what you mean. After my first attempt when I was 21 I woke up with a breathing tube down my throat and my arms were bound to the railings on the sides of the bed. I guess when people wake up they have a tendency to rip the tube out. Long story short, I was found just in time. When I woke up I was so confused and so pissed off that I wasn't dead. I remember the nurses were pissed off at me for trying to die because I guess they had a hell of a time trying to save me. They yelled at me and everything and I couldn't even speak because of the tube or get my hands free. Fucking cunts. Maybe I didn't want you to save me.
 
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AllHopeIsLost

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Aug 24, 2024
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Wish I could be put down like a dog.
 
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bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
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I know what you mean. After my first attempt when I was 21 I woke up with a breathing tube down my throat and my arms were bound to the railings on the sides of the bed. I guess when people wake up they have a tendency to rip the tube out. Long story short, I was found just in time. When I woke up I was so confused and so pissed off that I wasn't dead. I remember the nurses were pissed off at me for trying to die because I guess they had a hell of a time trying to save me. They yelled at me and everything and I couldn't even speak because of the tube or get my hands free. Fucking cunts. Maybe I didn't want you to save me.
That is the hipocrisy of this world these people don't even care to save us they just do it since it's they are obliged to.
 
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