Jealous

[Lost]

I am jealous of all the people who die from the virus and really want to live. I want to
CTB and can't think about failing again

 

[faust]

There is nothing to be jealous of. It is worse than hanging without using a soap.
Dying in overfilled hospital, waiting for the ventilators which are not in abundance now...
But I understand you... Just find the way out that suits you most.
And I am sorry life is a complicated thing for you...

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

After thinking a lot about this, I prefer to ctb rathed than catch the virus. I want to decide where when and how I die. I wont let the virus decide that for me.

 

[defeated]

I'm jealous of billionaires.

 

[defeated]

Being jealous of someone who feels like they're having their lungs filled with sand is... coldhearted honestly. I understand that we're hurting, but I feel like a suicide forum could have some compassion. Maybe I'm just an asshole.

 

[Painless_end]

There is nothing to be jealous of. It is worse than hanging without using a soap.
Dying in overfilled hospital, waiting for the ventilators which are not in abundance now...
But I understand you... Just find the way out that suits you most.
And I am sorry life is a complicated thing for you...

I am also jealous of those who pass away from the virus. Because I still haven't got the guts to CTB by any method.

Catching the virus and having it become terminal takes away the burden of responsbility from my mind and helps me achieve that which I want most.

 

[Lost]

Being jealous of someone who feels like they're having their lungs filled with sand is... coldhearted honestly. I understand that we're hurting, but I feel like a suicide forum could have some compassion. Maybe I'm just an asshole.

English is my second language, maybe you understood wrong.
I have compassion for the people and I know it's hard on them. I would give my life for all of them if I could.