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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,517
every day, I see on the news that people are dying, quite a few personalities, sometimes young people,...and I am very angry🤬 and very jealous🥺🥺🥺

And you???
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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so jealous
 
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QueenInsomnia

QueenInsomnia

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Jul 21, 2024
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I had a friend who passed away after battling cancer for a few years. We had a very enlightening conversation about life and death before he passed. My emotions were all over the place after he passed, and as I struggled to identify what I was feeling, I finally realized what it was and posted about it.

A friend of mine passed away on Sunday. It wasn't completely unexpected, he had been battling cancer for about three years now, in fact, just a few short weeks ago, we had an honest discussion about life and death. The weight of his loss has been a mix of emotions and feelings for me, perhaps the oddest of which is envy. Envy often colors our lives with hues of longing for what others have, a bittersweet tint that fades with familiarity. But when a friend passes, the envy we might feel takes on a new shade, a complex amalgam of grief and an unexpected yearning. It is not the possessions or accolades they held in life that we covet, but rather their newfound peace, the quiet they have found at the end of life's tumultuous path. As we stand at the precipice of their departure, grappling with the chaos they have left behind, we envy not for what they had, but for what they no longer have to endure: no more pain, no more fear, no more weight of days. In our sorrow, we find ourselves longing for the same release, even as we mourn the loss of their light in our lives. This envy is not petty; it is profoundly human, a reflection of our own fears and our hope for tranquility beyond the relentless demands of existence. With a heavy yet hopeful heart, I wish for his soul a gentle passage and a radiant journey into whatever peace lies ahead.

 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand, in my case I certainly envy those who are no longer able to suffer in this existence, those who are permanently unconscious without the ability to feel pain with existence no longer being their problem are the only true fortunate ones to me personally. I've only ever wished to not exist, I have no interest in suffering in this cruel and meaningless existence, only death comforts me.
 
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TakeMeToHeaven

TakeMeToHeaven

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Jul 25, 2024
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most of them did not die painlessly, but at least they are dead now and can't feel any more pain
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,517
Extremely jealous😱😱😱
 
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Light_

Elementalist
Apr 9, 2024
823
most of them did not die painlessly, but at least they are dead now and can't feel any more pain
Yeah this is the thing, most deaths sre not peaceful. Expect some discomfort on the way out. It's not f****** fair but it's the truth.
 
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hadenough

Student
Aug 24, 2019
147
I remember when I was at school a famous personality died and I thought I wish it had been me in his place as he brought joy to so many people. I still think it, and if Death has to balance the books like in the film Final Destination, why doesn't he take me instead of someone who wants to live?
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,517
Je me souviens qu'à l'école, une personnalité célèbre est décédée et j'ai pensé que j'aurais aimé que ce soit moi à sa place, car il avait apporté de la joie à tant de gens. Je le pense encore, et si la Mort doit équilibrer les comptes comme dans le film Destination Finale, pourquoi ne me prend-elle pas moi plutôt que quelqu'un qui veut vivre ?
to each person who dies I am very jealous, whether it is an anonymous person or a celebrity (alain delon today)
 
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