I'm insane insofar as I've completely lost my old personality and I have no idea how to operate in the world as a shell of myself. My mind ping pongs around my skull, bringing up random memories and experiences that have no bearing on the present moment. I have no interest in anything and I can only think about CTB. My loving feelings for friends and family members are gone. I don't know how to act anymore, I'm no longer human. If that's a definition of insane then yes I am.