i hate everything my partner doesn't show love or even talk to me unless i'm pleasing him and he openly talks about loving someone else and i can't say anything about it because it'll ruin him my grades are fucked i cant bring myself to do most shit that i did easily just a couple weeks ago i don't even know what's causing this i am so fucked i could try to ctb but most methods i have access to have low success rates and i live in a shit muslim country where alcohol is not allowed so getting SN is probably gonna be hard as shit i don't want to live anymore
Octavia
“I’d… rather kill myself.”
- Mar 4, 2023
- 363
Being stuck in a muslim country as a woman has to be one of the most awful situations to be in. I'm sorry you are dealing with that kind of torture.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 44,525
It must be awful feeling trapped in that situation and I certainly hate how it can be so difficult to finally die, I see it as being so cruel how humans are denied the option to just pass away in peace without risks and complications, failing a ctb attempt certainly sounds so horrible to me. But anyway I wish you the best.
EmpathyMinded
Student
- May 1, 2023
- 144
I'm sorry you are struggling like this. Are you able to leave the relationship? I don't know how viable it is but if there is a way that seems like it's worth trying. Would be a jarring change but worth it to get through. For however long you are here you shouldn't e stuck dealing with someone like that, a partner should show they care about you, period.
EmpathyMinded
Student
- May 1, 2023
- 144
You're placing value only on his feelings though. Yours matters too I think.
