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ImpairedLowlife

ImpairedLowlife

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
373
I'm realizing it more and more. I am nothing but a failure, an abuse to people around me. My life doesn't matter and I don't make any positive change for anyone.
I'm just a constant source of disappointment, stress and problems. Everybody have goals, dreams, motivation, friends and moments of happiness, but I don't have any of it. I'm broken.
Just dying in sleep is my dream. What's even the point of waking up every morning if all days are just suffering mixed with despair and sorrow?
At the very least I got my rope back, so in theory I have the way.
I hope I will find the courage to finally end myself in foreseeable future.
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
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Is there a reason you are broken? Have you tried anything to improve your situation? I hope and early exit would be your Plan B.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,354
Existing certainly can be torture and it must be painful being in that situation. Waking up and being aware of all this really is such a horrific thing, of course it would be so ideal to just pass away when sleeping and never wake again but the unfortunate reality is that such a death seems to be an impossibility, at least to me. I hope that you eventually find the freedom from this hellish world that you wish for.
 
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ImpairedLowlife

ImpairedLowlife

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
373
Is there a reason you are broken? Have you tried anything to improve your situation? I hope and early exit would be your Plan B.
I always had suicidal tendencies even as a kid. After years of shit life I haven't been able to feel any happiness for years at this point.
I did try to make it better. I moved from my parents to a different place, continued education, even got to the uni. But it all didn't work. I probably should've killed myself years ago.
 
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yyytry

:(
Sep 8, 2022
217
I'm realizing it more and more. I am nothing but a failure, an abuse to people around me. My life doesn't matter and I don't make any positive change for anyone.
I'm just a constant source of disappointment, stress and problems. Everybody have goals, dreams, motivation, friends and moments of happiness, but I don't have any of it. I'm broken.
Just dying in sleep is my dream. What's even the point of waking up every morning if all days are just suffering mixed with despair and sorrow?
At the very least I got my rope back, so in theory I have the way.
I hope I will find the courage to finally end myself in foreseeable future.
I feel very similar to this. Tried so many things and in the end, a failure.
I keep my rope setup modular, for the time I'm ready.
 
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