Venting it won't get better

[interna]

i started going out
making friends
setting goals
staying out late at night in bars
discovering stuff about myself
talking more
experimenting with art
forming projects
engaging in stuff i like
buying hings ive saved up for
im still the same as ever, im still empty and annoyed and bitter and miserable
I'm as worthless as ive always been, even more sonow
i dont feel sny happier, most of the time inconvenienced by my own relationships and mysefl
it doesn't get better, not for you not for me
im really sorry