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LittleMagician

LittleMagician

Experienced
Apr 17, 2025
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I can't even leave my house. There's no way to ctb. I am in a chronic state of depression. It only ever gets fucking worse
 
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LastNite

LastNite

Hi
Mar 31, 2025
285
Is it fear that locks you in?
I dont think it's usually fear that keeps someone locked from the rest of the world. Being depressed makes you less motivated to try or do anything including ending your life. It's a constant state of numbness and confusion.
 
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ChrisFromEarth

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May 12, 2025
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Oh, I understand depression far too well. I am treatment resistant as they label it. My last hope is psilocybin which I am trying right now.
Have you exhausted all treatment options as well?
I hope you will find a way to stay with us.
Now I have nearly everything to ctb but I really hope I don't have to.
 
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Douggy82

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Nov 4, 2024
225
I wish I were successful at ctb decades ago. It really does only get worse. Even if you pull yourself up by the bootstraps and grind your way from the gutter to the middle class, they'll beat you back down.

Evil runs the world.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,722
Oh, I understand depression far too well. I am treatment resistant as they label it. My last hope is psilocybin which I am trying right now.
Have you exhausted all treatment options as well?
I hope you will find a way to stay with us.
Now I have nearly everything to ctb but I really hope I don't have to.
My last hope is Psilocybin to. Keep us updated how it goes
 
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ChrisFromEarth

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May 12, 2025
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I created a post

 
divinemistress36

divinemistress36

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Jan 1, 2024
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In the USA. In Oregon and Colorado are the states know of so far. 1000017969
 
suicidal jirai

suicidal jirai

Hanged angel
May 23, 2025
29
I wish I were successful at ctb decades ago. It really does only get worse. Even if you pull yourself up by the bootstraps and grind your way from the gutter to the middle class, they'll beat you back down.

Evil runs the world.
And yet, it's strange, so many people just can't seem to see it.
 
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