Story It Always Comes Back to Shame

[ladidaok]

It always comes back to this

This overwhelming sense of shame— not because I did anything wrong, but because it feels like there's something fundamentally wrong with me

You know, I grew up with this pervasive feeling that everyone knew something(s) I didn't, and that once I understood what that thing(s) was, I'd be okay

As an adult, I've been able to see through this logically (and heal many of the layers to this shame), but at the same time, I haven't been able to heal as many layers I'd like


Since the shame I carry feels so debilitating, I'm trying to consciously get it out more (since internalizing it makes it worse)

Thanks for reading

 

[trying ungracefully]

It's good that you are getting it out. My therapist showed me a video of some doctor who did a course on shame (not publicly available) and one of the things mentioned is that if you keep speaking about your shame it gives it less power over you. Self compassion is the next step. https://selfcompassion.web.unc.edu/what-is-self-compassion/the-three-components-of-self-compassion/