Isn’t a husband supposed to love you?

[MrsT-800]

Instead I get called a brat, told to stop crying, that I'm the manipulative and gaslighting one when all I do is cry when he hurts me. Yes I'm clingy but I try to be independent. I was really independent at the start of marriage. But then I grew happy and comforted and got clingy. I mean, you're my spouse, I want to spend my time with you. Even when you call me a greedy little bitch and tell me to shush and shut up and tell me we have problems. You'd be so much happier if you never met me, I think. I'm sorry. I hope it'll be a welcome sight for you when I CTB finally

 

[Still here]

I am sorry that you are going through not being loved by someone who is supposed to love you must be painful...

 

[Whale_bones]

A partner should never call you things like a greedy bitch, there's no excuse for that. If someone can't control themselves enough to not say horrible things, then they shouldn't be in a relationship. Just know it's his problem, not yours, he is trying to make it your problem instead of taking responsibility. I'm really sorry you live with this, and I hope you can evaluate your desire to CTB on your own, without his influence, or separate from him if that's a possibility for you.

 

[CatLvr]

I was married to a man like this. My ONLY function in this life was supposed to be to cater to his every whim and anticipate his "needs" before he even realized he had them. And yes, for a short period of time he was physically abusive. But I have this habit of becoming INSANE with anger (instead of falling apart at the seams) when someone finally triggers me. At the point I realize that things just are what they are, and the whole "wonderful life" I was promised during the courting period isn't gonna happen, well, things change. For EVERYONE. I guess anger is a constructive emotion because it is the feeling that kept me safe. And alive. And he fucked around and died. Oops ... I TOLD him he wouldn't break me.

I hope you find that part of yourself that shields you from his abusive behavior. Only you can decide if/when you need to leave in order to be happy and safe. I will keep a good thought for you.