Is this sensation known to anyone?

[BigBang1]

It's been a year since I went through a traumatic experience. Since then, I've noticed something strange: when I'm in a very stressful situation, I feel an intense heat on my neck and upper back, followed by an urge to ctb. Is this feeling common among people who want to ctb? I've already made peace with the idea and even set a date. However, as that date gets closer, I find myself becoming more hesitant, and I've been thinking of using those triggers to make sure I follow through. (Planning to jump in front of a train)

 

[soon4good]

PTSD perhaps?

 

[BigBang1]

might be. I'm more interested in knowing if people who want to ctb feel a similar sensation on stressful situations

 

[soon4good]

might be. I'm more interested in knowing if people who want to ctb feel a similar sensation on stressful situations

Often ctb is an impulsive decision so I would assume this to be the case. I sometimes spiral into hopelessness and feel like I'm going to or have to hurt myself .