Is this normal?

[Dinnerwith6]

I have an audience, though I prefer to call them spectators that always watch me and are linked to me. There are two types, one that generally watches me, and ones that are me, but we'll focus on the ones that watch me.
I'm not sure when it started but they're becoming more noticeable in my life. The best way to describe these spectators is other worldly, or coming from somewhere far away as most aren't human but still have some human characteristics.

(I'll try my best to simplify my explanation)
These spectators are very aware that I want to CTB and have seen me go cuckoo bonkers, but they don't go telling me to kill myself. One, for example, can see my future, and concluded that I'll be screwed up or dead. I have another that follows me like a fly that's always with me first before anyone else arrives, and more but the rest gets complicated.
Most of the spectators don't directly talk to me but I do get influenced by their thoughts and behaviours, I think it's their way of telepathically communicating to me to do whatever is best. They aren't evil, a lot of the time I feel less lonely with them around, but I'm not sure how they became such a big part of my life. I tried explaining to the specialist about this whole system but they said I wasn't making any sense, so maybe it's just my imagination doing its thing :P

 

[U. A.]

Well, if by "normal" you mean "common", I'd say absolutely not given I have never heard anyone describe this exact thing and I've read a lot of interesting stories here. It does sound similar to a few other things that are more common (but still not commonly called "normal).
If the question of the title you mean "is this bad?" though I wouldn't say so; you say yourself: "They aren't evil, a lot of the time I feel less lonely with them around".

I saw another post of yours with a similar drawing and wondered if you had done it. Cool stuff, makes me think of @Cauliflour

 

[Dinnerwith6]

Well, if by "normal" you mean "common", I'd say absolutely not given I have never heard anyone describe this exact thing and I've read a lot of interesting stories here. It does sound similar to a few other things that are more common (but still not commonly called "normal).
If the question of the title you mean "is this bad?" though I wouldn't say so; you say yourself: "They aren't evil, a lot of the time I feel less lonely with them around".

I saw another post of yours with a similar drawing and wondered if you had done it. Cool stuff, makes me think of @Cauliflour

Yes! I've seen some of Cauliflour's posts before, she's the one who inspired me to add art into my posts :) (I hope she's alright with that)
And I only mention these spectator things because I find it strange that they are around whenever I'm sad (which is always XD)
It does make me relieved that I'm not the only one experiencing this but do I wonder what triggers it to happen

 

[tarnishedstoner]

do I wonder what triggers it to happen

Have you asked the specialist this question?
And to answer your original question, no, this isn't something that people experience normally.
Very cool drawing btw!

 

[Dinnerwith6]

Have you asked the specialist this question?
And to answer your original question, no, this isn't something that people experience normally.
Very cool drawing btw!

No, and I had to switch specialists a few weeks ago and the new one doesn't tell me anything, so I don't think asking them will get me any answers.
Also thank you! Your compliment made me smile :>

 

[Cauliflour]

Yes! I've seen some of Cauliflour's posts before, she's the one who inspired me to add art into my posts :) (I hope she's alright with that)

I don't mind but damn, you put in so much effort! Really enhances the text.

If I had to guess, I think these spectators are your subconscious helping you to navigate tricky feelings by trying to personify the advice as these strange figures. It's not a normal thing but I think it's moreso a symptom of certain conditions where trying to manage heavy emotions is too much for just your brain to handle. I'm mostly just going based of personal experience as I used to have a woman in my head that helped me through stress and other difficult feelings that I couldn't handle cause autism, so I assume it's something like that. If they're not trying to get you hurt then I think they're okay to have around as they must've appeared for a reason.

 

[Dinnerwith6]

I don't mind but damn, you put in so much effort! Really enhances the text.

If I had to guess, I think these spectators are your subconscious helping you to navigate tricky feelings by trying to personify the advice as these strange figures. It's not a normal thing but I think it's moreso a symptom of certain conditions where trying to manage heavy emotions is too much for just your brain to handle. I'm mostly just going based of personal experience as I used to have a woman in my head that helped me through stress and other difficult feelings that I couldn't handle cause autism, so I assume it's something like that. If they're not trying to get you hurt then I think they're okay to have around as they must've appeared for a reason.

Thank you so much! :D
I've always had little critters running around my head, but I assume that's just from creative imagination.
The only difference with the ones I have now is that they're much more present in my life, especially when it comes to making decisions.