is this how it was supposed to end?

[lnlybnny]

was i meant to end myself? or will i miss on all the movies, music, videos, books i would have loved... i'm just wondering if this would really be my end or if i'd miss out on anything i would love. looking at my pics as a child i feel ''what if i've let her down?'' ''who would've thought this would be her end?'' this is so overwhelming

 

[thealteredmind]

was there any other option?

 

[RemainingDubious]

looking at my pics as a child i feel ''what if i've let her down?'' ''who would've thought this would be her end?'' this is so overwhelming

i've never thought like that before, but since you mentioned it. i really don't like that thought. i must have let myself down countless times. The only thing i really have is regrets.

was there any other option?

This provides me with some comfort since i guess there didn't seem to be the majority of the time.

The only other comfort i have is that i used to want to be like a lost boy from Peter Pan and never wanted to grow up.

 

[Catlover124]

One of the reasons I am hesitating on suicide is that my favorite novels and manga are not finished yet.

I am pretty sure that little me will support me on whatever I do. Since I am the person I love the most in the world, I want me to choose what make me happy.

 

[cosmic_traveler]

was i meant to end myself? or will i miss on all the movies, music, videos, books i would have loved... i'm just wondering if this would really be my end or if i'd miss out on anything i would love. looking at my pics as a child i feel ''what if i've let her down?'' ''who would've thought this would be her end?'' this is so overwhelming

The person in those photos is not you, they are a memory, they don't exist anymore.

One thing that we know for certain, the deceased have no concerns. You won't miss the movies you'll never watch, you won't care about the music you'll never jam to, because you can't care if you're not around for them.

Only you can say if you are meant to end yourself.

Sorry you're in so much pain. Be well on your journey.