Discussion Is need to CTB urgent?

[Fadeawaaaay]

Sometimes I can live with the need to end it, other times is excruciating and pressing…
This AM it was pressing - feeling like I need to do this as soon as possible and I can't live another day…

 

[Dot]

Nd 2 is urgnt bt SI = strngr.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not 'struggle' or 'suffer' with suicidal thoughts, suicidal thoughts are comforting and it is the only thing I want to think about. Everything else is painful. Maybe at the current moment it is not so much an urgency, but just something that I want. I want to be free from suffering and to be at peace. Ctb is the only thing that feels right for me. However when things get worse and I get desperate I know my need to ctb will be urgent. If only it was easier to exit.