Discussion Is it weird to feel peaceful ?

[MrsevenTseven]

You know. I made up my mind a long time ago and I was honestly reading about different methods and planning some cleaning and thinking about my son. Im usually incredibly anxious and I hardly leave my room anymore. I'm just too scared to go anywhere. But all the sudden I just feel calm. I believe that the we're all energy and that when you pass that energy still exists. I don't know where it might go afterward. But I'm calm and I'm comfortable feeling like maybe part of me may exist.
I've been so anxious and haven't felt like a person in such a long time. I'm just wondering if it's weird to feel so calm all of the sudden?

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

Not weird at all. A lot of people tend to feel better when they've made the decision. Try to enjoy it and best of luck to you.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

Not weird, I've been calm everytime I've planned my suicide, tried and failed, obviously.

I also think it's because it's something to focus on, and that's perhaps where it really comes from, and not the fact that you're calm about killing yourself.

 

[NoName_NoLife]

I think this is the next stage where things stop being so important to you and you start to stop thinking about what's going to happen and start living in the moment.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I believe that the we're all energy and that when you pass that energy still exists.

That's physically proven mass = energy and vice versa!

It's not weird at all to feel peaceful!

 

[FuneralCry]

To me personally it's understandable, I believe I'd feel at peace if I had a way to be free from all the suffering. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[genie]

No, because it's a solution to all the problems so if you feel like you have an out, you'll feel at peace. That's why people are shocked sometimes that someone they know has CTB because they never showed signs and seemed peaceful.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, I don't think that it's weird. I actually think that's reasonable. I'd also be at peace if I knew I had a way out of here

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

It's not peace so much as clarity. I think a lot about if i'm feeling rational about this, and the clarity is freeing and very real.

 

[Onelessstraw]

When I picked a date for CTB, I felt calm. Everything seems trivial now. When I do have a bad day and the anxiety creeps back, knowing it's not forever helps calm me down

 

[M3lancholia]

I think once the decision has been made you ultimately feel calmer. You're at peace with it and the realisation that nothing can hurt you or raise anxiety levels any more, because you know there's going to be an end. This is how I feel anyway