Is it a phase or a beginning of addiction?

[Deer_Dairy]

Hey,

I'd rather be short. I felt into huge depression some day in December. I was quite ok for two years but it started again.
I have ctb planned and everything because I am not enjoying life. I mean even when I am ok. This resolution comes from quite healthz mind, not from depressed one.


In December, I tried coke to alleviate feelings of hopelessness. It worked great. At first it was twice a week, now it's every day and has been going on for about a month.
I tried coke for first time 17 years ago and used it on a parties and so maybe once in three months., I know very well what it does and how you feel day or days after. But now, when I try to stop and downturn is away, I start to feel horribly depressed again. I am almost non-functional.
I contacted drug addiction center to consult my situation, go there next week.

Still I don't know. Will this coke abuse go away when the depression is not so horrible or will it stay and ruin my life even further?

I don't want to quit living as a junkie...

 

[Arlowantsushi]

As someone who comes from an entire family of junkies i promise you you'll be able to get better. Its hard, but its possible.

Wishing you the best!

 

[Alpacachino]

I'll just write about my own experience with alcohol. There's just no point to it. I'm guessing it's the same with drugs. Let me explain. I started drinking because I didn't like my life, but guess what happened? My life only became worse. I know difficult things will happen later on in my life but I won't use alcohol or drugs to cope. Using them will only make it worse. I know this now.


Armed with that irrefutable fact, I stopped drinking and I just haven't gone back. Alcohol or drugs make you feel better only for a very short while and then you're chasing that high forever. They're not going to alleviate your pain, only amplify it. They're not going to make things better.


And as a result of that addiction, everything else falls by the wayside. I feel it's truly better to be dead than addicted to any vice since you'll be living as a shell of your former self.

 

[a65b]

it will get better, coke isnt easy to quit but not impossible. youll feel awful for a bit and it will feel hopeless but if you stay strong you can leave it behind