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Myheart4U

Myheart4U

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I originally intended to make one post and that's it, but I've kinda become addicted to reading the posts on this site. They only make me sad and keep me thinking about CTB so I dont know why I keep coming back. I really want to talk to the people on here because I can relate to so many, but I know they're not going to be here long. But, maybe that's not such a bad thing. It would hurt to know someone I was talking to would be gone forever, but maybe not if I'm already expecting that. We could share some things about each other and be friends even if for a brief moment. I could remember them so someone knew they existed, it'd give me some purpose. I'm getting kinda desperate to find real friends. I dont want to become overbearing on the one person I talk to. It feels selfish to want that from a forum like this. I should probably stop visiting this site unless I have updates on my plans next year.
 
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bipolar22

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Hmm hsve you checked the recovery section?
 
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Holu

Holu

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You aren't selfish for wanting friends from a place where you feel better understood. But it's definitely harder finding permanent friends here. This is a place which attracts the ephemeral, so expect temporary. People here are often already walking on thin lines, and death is unfortunately not to uncommon.

But you definitely aren't alone in feeling how you feel. So as with all things on this pro-choice forum just do what you feel is right and best for you.
 
bipolar22

bipolar22

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You aren't selfish for wanting friends from a place where you feel better understood. But it's definitely harder finding permanent friends here. This is a place which attracts the ephemeral, so expect temporary. People here are often already walking on thin lines, and death is unfortunately not to uncommon.

But you definitely aren't alone in feeling how you feel. So as with all things on this pro-choice forum just do what you feel is right and best for you.
Yes if im not mistaken there used to be a recovery section for useres trying to improve their life. Maybe thy too it down by now. Not sure.
 
Holu

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Yes if im not mistaken there used to be a recovery section for useres trying to improve their life. Maybe thy too it down by now. Not sure.
 
bipolar22

bipolar22

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Yes. I think thst one. Didnt resd nuch in it but seems to be less focused on suicide methods but for poeple giving life snother shot might be better to to mske some close friend on there opposed to the suicide section. Msybe
 
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Holu

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Yes. I think thst one. Didnt resd nuch in it but seems to be less focused on suicide methods but for poeple giving life snother shot might be better to to mske some close friend on there opposed to the suicide section. Msybe
I have a friend who exclusively uses and browses the recovery section. I occasionally look into it. Sometimes it sorta crosses wires a lot with the suicide discussion section.

It's pretty cool tho. Its more just snapshots into peoples lives and questions they have.
 
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Myheart4U

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Thanks guys!! Do you also have a link to the friends thread? I keep seeing people mention it but I have no idea how to navigate a forum.
 
eggsausagerice

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Do you also have a link to the friends thread?



I originally intended to make one post and that's it, but I've kinda become addicted to reading the posts on this site. They only make me sad and keep me thinking about CTB so I dont know why I keep coming back. I really want to talk to the people on here because I can relate to so many, but I know they're not going to be here long. But, maybe that's not such a bad thing. It would hurt to know someone I was talking to would be gone forever, but maybe not if I'm already expecting that. We could share some things about each other and be friends even if for a brief moment.

i feel the same way, honestly. it's really hard to detach myself from the site. it sort of makes me want to kill myself without even thinking about it or questioning it, because everyone in suicide discussion will always be talking about suicide. on days where i feel anxious sometimes i browse here because i don't know where else to go, and on nights when i'm lonely i go on here. but i know "here" isn't a real community, because people leave every month or talk about how depressed they are for still being on this forum instead of attempting. it's so easy to get sucked in and just read for an hour straight, because it connects to a deep part of you (at least for me) that wants to be negative and wants reasons to be negative. the site makes me anxious these days, because i know i'm dependent on it now. not browsing here weirdly makes me feel like i'm "missing out" now, even though living life outside of sasu is what living really is. try to avoid going on here when an intrusive thought comes up. that's usually what triggers me.
 
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Im new ..there's so much love and support on this site... Hope u find the same ✨❤️‍🩹
 

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