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i dont want to live, but at the same time i dont want to die either, i am afraid of death
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
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For me it was a mix of a few things:
1 I have always been certain about what happens when I die. Whether that was with faith or without, I am confident I know what happens, which takes away the mystique of death and therefore the fear.
2 I have studied death. I know what happens physically and mentally when the body dies. Death is not a foreign activity to me anymore. I have also studied and practiced my method so I know what hto expect.
3 I have gotten to a point where the depression I suffer daily far outweighs any fear that I could have about anything that comes with dying or after death. Death will end my suffering. Why would I be afraid of that?
 
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synthetic_suicide

Heaven's Gate Away Team
Feb 11, 2024
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Not afraid of death: yes
SI kicking in every time I am somewhat close to ctb: also yes
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm not and would never be, all I fear is this dreadful, terrible and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence with no limit as to how much they can be tortured, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering.

I'd just never wish to exist rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, for me non-existence is the only peace and relief as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to ceasing to exist and all I want is to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering, all I want is to never exist ever again, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and is all I see as desirable in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, harmful mistake.
 
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May 26, 2025
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For me it was a mix of a few things:
1 I have always been certain about what happens when I die. Whether that was with faith or without, I am confident I know what happens, which takes away the mystique of death and therefore the fear.
2 I have studied death. I know what happens physically and mentally when the body dies. Death is not a foreign activity to me anymore. I have also studied and practiced my method so I know what hto expect.
3 I have gotten to a point where the depression I suffer daily far outweighs any fear that I could have about anything that comes with dying or after death. Death will end my suffering. Why would I be afraid of that?
how are you certain what happens when you die? and what do you think happens after death? i don't believe in heaven, reincarnation , or an afterlife in general but i cant disprove of any of them either.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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how are you certain what happens when you die? and what do you think happens after death? i don't believe in heaven, reincarnation , or an afterlife in general but i cant disprove of any of them either.
I believe in nothingness. The brain stops firing electrical impulses and we disappear. I have had many years to think it through and one day I just said to myself "yeah, this is right". Never questioned it after that. I guess if I believe it without proof, one could say I am taking it on faith though it is a far cry from any traditionally faith-based ideas. 😅
 
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kitkat9234

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Nov 27, 2024
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I'm scared for what happens next. Will I be in a worse place? Or just nothingness? Scared of the unknown I guess. One of the reasons why I haven't tried again.
 
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I believe in nothingness. The brain stops firing electrical impulses and we disappear. I have had many years to think it through and one day I just said to myself "yeah, this is right". Never questioned it after that. I guess if I believe it without proof, one could say I am taking it on faith though it is a far cry from any traditionally faith-based ideas. 😅
yeah im an athiest, but even i dont know what happens after death, nothingness is probably #1 on my hierarchy of beliefs of what happens after death. but i cant help but question how we got here in the first place. i do hope for nothingness though
 
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Infinitespace_

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Jan 23, 2021
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i dont want to live, but at the same time i dont want to die either, i am afraid of death
who says death exists? Nothing can be destroyed in the outer world not even a drop of water, what to say about the inner world?
 
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who says death exists? Nothing can be destroyed in the outer world not even a drop of water, what to say about the inner world?
nonexistence imo is superior to existence, so death not existing sounds awful. i am afraid of it but i also think its good
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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I'm not afraid of Death for many reasons some are :

We are all going to die anyway. and soon too ( how fast did the last 5 years pass by?).

I am my brain . that's it. i only exist in a fictional story my brain creates. there is no self there are just brain cells connected to each other in a brain where is the self ? the brain creates a simulation of a self like a computer creates a vr fps game like gta 5 where does the self go where do you go during dreamless sleep? you cease to exist during dreamless sleep. . 1 micro-second after my brain dies it will never be able to create that "I" model point of view never again. i will never exist again. after Death i will never exist again, non-existence forever.

why is that something to fear since non of us existed for 13.8 billion years before we were born. so it's like we are going back in time again to the time before we were born , non-existence but this time permanently.

what is life a human? cells. a cell that evolved 4 bilion years ago from chemical reactions. the same kinds of cells that are in a human are in other animals.

only in non-existence forever is there a gurantee of never suffering extremely , no pain , no suffering , no problems no bad memories. so eternal non-existence is the only perfection. the only guarantee of never suffering so badly it's a trilion times worse than you can imagine. i don't fear that i want that asap
 
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nonexistence imo is superior to existence, so death not existing sounds awful. i am afraid of it but i also think its good
why would death not existing be awful? that would mean that you are eternal and immortal, that you are not your mind/body/emotions. there would be nothing to fear if you knew this to be true.
 
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why would death not existing be awful? that would mean that you are eternal and immortal, that you are not your mind/body/emotions. there would be nothing to fear if you knew this to be true.
yes i dont want immortality, that means you have to contend with the indifference of existence and the environment (physics of the universe and how people perceive you) forever. i genuinely dont want to be immortal, for 2.5 billion years of active evolution, most sentient beings were torn to shreds by other animal consumption, and there are still many hierarchies within all animal species that make them suffer, even apex predators like lions, so knowing that 99%+ of sentient life is undignified and meaningless deaths, why would i want to live forever?
 
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the point is that you are not the body or the so called self, the ego so whatever happens to you, you are separate from it, you are just a witness to all that is. you would want to live forever because your being(soul) knows nothing of suffering only bliss
 
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the point is that you are not the body or the so called self, the ego so whatever happens to you, you are separate from it, you are just a witness to all that is. you would want to live forever because your being(soul) knows nothing of suffering only bliss
i appreciate your comment but im heavily athiestic so i dont believe in souls, and i dont know how a being can know nothing of suffering and only bliss.
 
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Cherrypea

I remember when all this will be again
May 3, 2020
417
Afraid of death? Never, it's my life's ambition and what makes that great is that I know I'll definitely achieve it one day. I'm looking forward to it. I envy people who die and pity people who are newly born, with a lifetime in this terrible place ahead of them. To me, death will finally bring peace. Just imagine, going to sleep and never having to wake up, so good.
 
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i appreciate your comment but im heavily athiestic so i dont believe in souls, and i dont know how a being can know nothing of suffering and only bliss.
It's good you don't believe in a soul because belief means you don't know. What the world needs is seekers of the truth not believers or disbelievers
 
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-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
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Yes. I don't really know how it happened. I just sort of broke one day, somehow.
 
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JealousOfTheElderly

In death, life echoes. In life, death calls.
Aug 28, 2020
251
I am afraid of reincarnation and karma. I am afraid that if I end it now, I will have to come back and relive a life similar to mine now. No thank you. In my next life, I want to be happy. I want a family. I want joy. I want a healthy body. I'd give anything to have this over money or material wealth.
 
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I am afraid of reincarnation and karma. I am afraid that if I end it now, I will have to come back and relive a life similar to mine now. No thank you. In my next life, I want to be happy. I want a family. I want joy. I want a healthy body. I'd give anything to have this over money or material wealth.
i dont "want" to want anything, desire within of itself is born out of deprivation (you want a relationship to avoid being lonely, food to avoid hunger)
free will doesnt exist and im very nihilistic on "feelings" too, feelings are comprised of billions of years of evolution which micro-doses drugs into sentient beings to chase survival requirements/mechanisms and reproduction.

"karma", i dont know how you will deal with that, but by existing you are causing harm, i support vegan ideology as the most reasonable ethical diet, but at the end of the day vegans who cause less harm, still cause harm because their diet exploits the ecosystem of the agricultural environment and all the bugs , birds , and rodents that inhabit it.

and as for reincarnation, lets hope that doesnt exist, because existence is compromised of needs that didnt need to exist. 2.5 billion years of active evolution and its full of sentient creatures tearing eachother apart
 
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Fall_Apart

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May 22, 2023
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I am not actually afraid of death because I have already experienced the closest thing: total anesthesia. But there are 2 other problems, before and after that scare me. The first is how you will die, since in any case, with rare exceptions, you will first have to suffer slowly while waiting for one of your vital organs to collapse naturally. The second problem is that the hypothesis of eternal nothingness is highly unlikely, because if you have already been born once, this means that the cycle will continue through new consciousnesses, human or animal. Next time you look at a lizard for example, try to observe it carefully: obviously it does not have a consciousness, but it has the ability to experience the external world and react, which means that a life form is experimenting with existence. Draw your own conclusions.
 
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I am afraid of reincarnation and karma. I am afraid that if I end it now, I will have to come back and relive a life similar to mine now. No thank you. In my next life, I want to be happy. I want a family. I want joy. I want a healthy body. I'd give anything to have this over money or material wealth.
With reincarnation they say you only get that which you deserve and your level of consciousness will remain the same as it is now that is the only thing which will go with you when you die.
 
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With reincarnation they say you only get that which you deserve and your level of consciousness will remain the same as it is now that is the only thing which will go with you when you die.
"they say" where? source?
 
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tanshakti

Absurdity of life
Jul 2, 2025
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There are few thoughts that can be explored. No one has died and came to say after life looks like , so its a perspective of educated guesses/faith to fantasies and myth.
with that being said, IMHO , we evolved created language and consciousness, and our mind and circumstances created our fate. There is quantum realm, there is energy and energy can neither be created nor destroyed it transforms. so may be we transform into another energy form or there is nothingness. we are not even speck in this expansive universe, universe, nature is in different to our creation
 
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timechained

Experienced
Apr 15, 2025
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I am not afraid of death but I have learnt that there are certain ways I just don't want to die.

I often dissociate and feel like life isn't real so that plays a part.
 
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exciccil

Frustrated Soul
Jul 7, 2025
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the point is that you are not the body or the so called self, the ego so whatever happens to you, you are separate from it, you are just a witness to all that is. you would want to live forever because your being(soul) knows nothing of suffering only bliss
I find it hard to believe claims of psychedelics make you dissolve your ego fully for this reason,unless I am just that high-strung, LOL.
 
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"they say" where? source?

It's a Buddhist idea
I find it hard to believe claims of psychedelics make you dissolve your ego fully for this reason,unless I am just that high-strung, LOL.

Yeah you dissolving the ego would be because of the drug but once the drug wears off, the ego will return. In this case the drug is the master not you.
 
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Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
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who says death exists? Nothing can be destroyed in the outer world not even a drop of water, what to say about the inner world?
To play devil's advocate, structures can be destroyed, and if consciousness is fundamentally a result of certain structures or a structure itself - if it arises due to the presence of certain mutable conditions - it too can be destroyed, at least insofar as its current form.

Personally, though, I think that consciousness as we know it is 'primed' by something in the fundament, but that the fundament itself (whatever it is) is not conscious but rather carries the potential for emergent structures arising from it to be.
 
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Not afraid of death. Afraid of pain. Death is inevitable and inescapable, it doesn't serve us at all to fear it. We can't stop it.

Pain on the other hand is avoidable and extremely unpleasant. And I don't want my last moment filled with fucking agony.
 

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