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LucifersIntrovert

LucifersIntrovert

Buried Alive
Sep 10, 2023
57
I'm currently finishing up my 2nd year of college and about to graduate next semester with my Associates in Law. I want to go into family law to become an attorney as I came from a broken home and could really relate to those impacted by divorce and custody assistance. But I'm so stressed constantly thinking I'm not doing enough in school. I'm taking 5 classes and I'm a full time student. But I always doubt myself I can't seem to think positively on this. Just not knowing about my future in what will happen or when it will happen. Since I'm actually enjoying everything about law I want it to happen. I can't see myself working a standard 9-5 in a grocery store or fast food my whole life. That's why CTB is always on my mind. I have no plan B, it's this or nothing. I can't stand thinking about juggling 9-5 getting yelled at by customers for their large number 4. I'm just so passionate about law and love everything about it from the rules, to laws, to procedures, to the penal codes. Please tell me I'm not the only one who wants to CTB because of the unknown future or working in a 9-5 living paycheck to paycheck every 2 weeks.
 
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StupidCat

StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
243
You're not alone, i rather die than "living" like that.
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

Who even am I?
Apr 22, 2025
229
I've probably said this before, but I hate gambling--especially about the future.

The whole deal of things being uncertain is awful. Your entire life could be flipped on its head and everything you worked hard for could become meaningless.

Not everyone is equipped to handle living paycheck to paycheck under a slave driver just make ends meet.

What reason is there to live if it isn't the life that I envision for myself-- or at the very least I'm content with living? Why delay the inevitable for what ifs?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Defintely the future but, the immediate present is always scary too. I'm freelance so, work is constantly a worry. The wage slave 9-5 is always threatening. I've tried on 3 occassions to get more permanent full time jobs but, they didn't suit either. Plus, no retirement fund, no sick pay, in my mid 40's. The future isn't looking at all bright! I'm determined that I need to save myself from it.

I would have thought law was a sensible subject though. I imagine the demand is high. Keeping my fingers crossed things go smoothly for you. Have you done any work experience for law firms? I imagine that could be a good way in.
 
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
677
All I can tell you is I hate thinking about the future. I mean I dont want to wind up sleeping on a park bench, but I also dont care that much about it. I think I mostly live in the past. Locked in my own head most of the time. I have an innerworld that I used to frequent, but last few years I dig up old memories.
 
LigottiIsRight

LigottiIsRight

Life is not worth beginning.
Jan 28, 2025
99
I say the same as StupidCat.
 

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