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Jon Arbuckle

Jon Arbuckle

Aspiring Corpse
Jul 23, 2024
119
Basically one of the main reasons Ive been considering ctb is college.

I don't want to get into the details (maybe I will later I'm just so tired right now) but I'm doing so miserably in community college that it's making me feel like a failure, growing up everyone always told me how "talented" I was in the field I'm studying (i'm not, they're being nice because they're friends and family) and now I'm failing so miserably at everything that I just can't see myself moving on from this.

Has anyone else felt like this, either currently or in the past? is this just a stupid reason to be suicidal? could use some advice.
 
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WhatPowerIs

WhatPowerIs

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,060
I am. I just dont want to be there. There is nothing in life I am passionate about, passionate enough to work hard at. I have failed several classes multiple times. Worst part is I feel like I have zero free time, because I spent most of my day on campus, and then when I get home I have to do homework or study so it is occupying such a large part of my life. It feels like a nightmare. I want to leave. I hate that jobs will only take you seriously if you have a degree, and I hate that you need a job in order to live. I don't want to participate in society, I want to die.
 
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Jon Arbuckle

Jon Arbuckle

Aspiring Corpse
Jul 23, 2024
119
I am. I just dont want to be there. There is nothing in life I am passionate about, passionate enough to work hard at. I have failed several classes multiple times. Worst part is I feel like I have zero free time, because I spent most of my day on campus, and then when I get home I have to do homework or study so it is occupying such a large part of my life. It feels like a nightmare. I want to leave. I hate that jobs will only take you seriously if you have a degree, and I hate that you need a job in order to live. I don't want to participate in society, I want to die.
I am in a pretty similar boat as you. I'm sorry.
 
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etherealspring

etherealspring

can someone just kill me already
Mar 27, 2024
281
Basically one of the main reasons Ive been considering ctb is college.

I don't want to get into the details (maybe I will later I'm just so tired right now) but I'm doing so miserably in community college that it's making me feel like a failure, growing up everyone always told me how "talented" I was in the field I'm studying (i'm not, they're being nice because they're friends and family) and now I'm failing so miserably at everything that I just can't see myself moving on from this.

Has anyone else felt like this, either currently or in the past? is this just a stupid reason to be suicidal? could use some advice.
ive been suicidal since secondary school, but university has been making it even worse so i understand how u feel :(
I am. I just dont want to be there. There is nothing in life I am passionate about, passionate enough to work hard at. I have failed several classes multiple times. Worst part is I feel like I have zero free time, because I spent most of my day on campus, and then when I get home I have to do homework or study so it is occupying such a large part of my life. It feels like a nightmare. I want to leave. I hate that jobs will only take you seriously if you have a degree, and I hate that you need a job in order to live. I don't want to participate in society, I want to die.
im in a similar situation, im at a loss and i dont have anything i want to do in life so im stuck. im sorry it's been like this for you, it's a tough situation and it truly sucks :/
 
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WhatPowerIs

WhatPowerIs

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,060
ive been suicidal since secondary school, but university has been making it even worse so i understand how u feel :(

im in a similar situation, im at a loss and i dont have anything i want to do in life so im stuck. im sorry it's been like this for you, it's a tough situation and it truly sucks :/
yeah same, its not like i was doing any better in middle school or high school, but the stress of university has heightened my depression.
 
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Franken_1517

Franken_1517

Member
Mar 14, 2024
39
I hate it. Giving presentations where people laugh at how shitty i am at oration. Seeing my classsmates with girlfriends/boyfriends while no one looks at my ugly ass. Group projects. Knowing that despite being decent at academics I will never get a job, due to my pathetic social skills.
 
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BirdWithoutWings

BirdWithoutWings

In my next life I hope to be a bird.
Jul 7, 2024
25
I feel you. I was a Fine arts student as I was always told I was a good artist, actually enjoyed my time studying and did well in my courses. The thing that ruined it all was having my student aid be reassessed, which never actually got done, forcing me to drop out. (which led to me losing my job as it was a contract through educational institutes) I'm more suicidal over the fact that I didn't get a chance to complete my degree, despite numerous scholarships, ALL due to somebody not doing their job at the loans office. I pretty much lost complete purpose for life after that and can hardly bring myself to create anything anymore.

And now this year I saw all my peers graduating, which was one final nail in the coffin. As somebody who didn't get to attend their highschool graduation (a teacher at my highschool forgor to process a credit in time causing me to have to be a super senior despite owing 0 credits that final year..) watching my fine arts peers graduate without me as well felt like shit. But that's life I suppose!

I hope your college classes start to get better soon at least, the first 2 years tend to be the "hardest" and are also tthe years that weed people out. If you're able to make it past that, the remainder shouldn't be as bad (depending on the degree, ofcourse.)
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,511
Basically one of the main reasons Ive been considering ctb is college.

I don't want to get into the details (maybe I will later I'm just so tired right now) but I'm doing so miserably in community college that it's making me feel like a failure, growing up everyone always told me how "talented" I was in the field I'm studying (i'm not, they're being nice because they're friends and family) and now I'm failing so miserably at everything that I just can't see myself moving on from this.

Has anyone else felt like this, either currently or in the past? is this just a stupid reason to be suicidal? could use some advice.
Currently here, found this post because of the search. I do well in classes, it's not like I get bad grades, but mores because I feel dumber than everyone else and behind everyone. I'm in STEM so the imposter syndrome is strong right now
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
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Currently here, found this post because of the search. I do well in classes, it's not like I get bad grades, but mores because I feel dumber than everyone else and behind everyone. I'm in STEM so the imposter syndrome is strong right now
I remember when you talked about your first day of precalculus class. You made it so far. Have some faith in yourself and your abilities and continue working on improving them without looking to what other people can do.
 
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exitingtothevoid

exitingtothevoid

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Aug 2, 2024
57
Currently here, found this post because of the search. I do well in classes, it's not like I get bad grades, but mores because I feel dumber than everyone else and behind everyone. I'm in STEM so the imposter syndrome is strong right now
Imposter syndrome is rough, especially towards the end of college. I've never figured out a way to really deal with it, only come to the realization that it's shockingly common in my field. Not that that stops it from coming back.
 
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Iris Blue

Iris Blue

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Oct 23, 2023
226
I tried community college for a bit but I couldn't take all the normal classes or be in a normal classroom with a lot of people. I never really liked school and had trouble going so I am not surprised college wasn't for me. I do feel like a huge failure though since I couldn't even do community college, and although I know I can always go back I just get so much anxiety, I also don't see a point knowing I probably won't be around long enough to finish it anyways.
 
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RechargedSamsung

Aint what it used to be
Jul 28, 2024
9
Nowhere near excited im just gonna be lonely in there i want to ctb there's a gun show coming up next weekend might buy one but the fucking problem is that i dont have a drivers license so i cant even purchase a shotgun unless i can somehow manage to convince them to sign like the papers and shit for me
 

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