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ChildrensITV

ChildrensITV

Arcanist
Mar 14, 2023
460
...you still feel TERRIBLE? The day outside is beautiful, calming, sunny, but for me, there is still an air of sadness about it. I am a broken man because of past trauma, which extends into the current day. So, even on days when nothing immediately bad is about to happen (AFAIK), I am still living in an "aftermath", the anticlimax to when my life was more acceptable, the fear of when this temporary moment of somewhat calm is interrupted by the normal dogshit?



(Suffershade - Outside)
 
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ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
1,141
Yes. When things go right or just when the day isn't so bad, I always have this feeling that I can't rest because bad things are coming. That if I relax or enjoy the moment, the bad that is coming will be even worse. Need to stay on my guard at all times.
 
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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
1,084
I woke up with a massive headache this morning due to unbelievable stress and trauma, so yeah. Nothing bad is even happening, but I'm stressing out and wanting to hurt myself.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,721
Always in fight or flight mode
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,148
This is why I drink, well partly
 
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