Venting intrusive thoughts make most of my misery.

[alwayspissedoff]

title. imagine wanting, not to be happy, but just at peace, and then your mind starts generating, irational or not, but thoughts that do nothing but drain you in every way possible. they really do make me want to CTB. I'd even dare to say that if I didn't have them, I would still live bad, but at least I'd be in peace, or more at least.

like, I want to listen to music, continue the games I'm struggling to finish, improve myself, try new things, but my fucking mind just won't shut up and making up things.
I hate being dysfunctional because of this. if it's not depression, it's these thoughts that come with anxiety.

not the reason of the post, but if anyone has any advice on how to deal with them, would be really glad to read them.

 

[just_a_guy]

No advice as I struggle with this too. Sometimes I wonder whether I even want to be happy, because the one thing I've always wanted the most is to just stop existing. Sometimes keeping busy with menial tasks helps, keeps me grounded in the moment. Good luck with your battle.

 

[avalokitesvara]

It sounds like OCD to me. Most people are able to ignore thoughts and they go away on their own. They can recognise that thoughts are just thoughts and don't need to be reacted to. If you cannot do that I think you should seek some specific treatment to help you with how to handle intrusive thoughts.

 

[Pale_Rider]

It's a weight on the shoulders for sure. What the heck is happiness?

 

[alwayspissedoff]

It sounds like OCD to me. Most people are able to ignore thoughts and they go away on their own. They can recognise that thoughts are just thoughts and don't need to be reacted to. If you cannot do that I think you should seek some specific treatment to help you with how to handle intrusive thoughts.

I'm on medication for depression and anxiety, since that's what my doctor said I had. I don't know if I didn't explain enough how I feel (since I suck at opening up), and in consequence wasn't given any help with this thing, or, eh, idk.
would think my anxiety pills would help me with this, but I don't think so.

maybe will bring this up in the next appointment, although it's really hard for me.

 

[Dante_]

maybe will bring this up in the next appointment, although it's really hard for me.

I wish you the best in any therapy regarding this as i struggle a lot with intrusive thoughts as well, enough to where it is overwhelming at times and yeah, partly a reason why but not as prominent but no doubt a contributing factor.

 

[starinthesky]

I'm on medication for depression and anxiety, since that's what my doctor said I had. I don't know if I didn't explain enough how I feel (since I suck at opening up), and in consequence wasn't given any help with this thing, or, eh, idk.
would think my anxiety pills would help me with this, but I don't think so.

maybe will bring this up in the next appointment, although it's really hard for me.

Seconding this, I have OCD and the thoughts rarely ever stop. I suggest you could read a little about it and see if other symptoms match (rituals etc)
There's a few tricks to be learned which help so knowing would definitely be good!

 

[22yearsbroken]

My gets to work and starts .. qhwn im ready to sleep just as my eyes.. are ready to close . The n my head gies HELLO.... and it starts ro run and turn and every rbought runs through my head at 10 million mile an hour... i think about every single outcome from every si gle choice i have ever made ..
I pushed to go on a ski trip with school when i was 15 had my 16th while away parent ccouldnt afford it but i sat .. and was a dick as a kid till the money was found and i went on the holiday... j got back on the 24th my mum died on the 25th id left my 12 year old sister alone ... i had to get her from school and explain my dad worked abroad and was half way round the world...
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Ill get back to you all that one

 

[alwayspissedoff]

Seconding this, I have OCD and the thoughts rarely ever stop. I suggest you could read a little about it and see if other symptoms match (rituals etc)
There's a few tricks to be learned which help so knowing would definitely be good!

I definitely do have some other symptoms, not all of them but many.
sadly, I have tried things to overcome and live with this thoughts, but my thoughts always win, so it kinda feels hopeless to just try now lol.