Venting intrusive thoughts make most of my misery.

[alwayspissedoff]

title. imagine wanting, not to be happy, but just at peace, and then your mind starts generating, irational or not, but thoughts that do nothing but drain you in every way possible. they really do make me want to CTB. I'd even dare to say that if I didn't have them, I would still live bad, but at least I'd be in peace, or more at least.

like, I want to listen to music, continue the games I'm struggling to finish, improve myself, try new things, but my fucking mind just won't shut up and making up things.
I hate being dysfunctional because of this. if it's not depression, it's these thoughts that come with anxiety.

not the reason of the post, but if anyone has any advice on how to deal with them, would be really glad to read them.

 

[just_a_guy]

No advice as I struggle with this too. Sometimes I wonder whether I even want to be happy, because the one thing I've always wanted the most is to just stop existing. Sometimes keeping busy with menial tasks helps, keeps me grounded in the moment. Good luck with your battle.

 

[avalokitesvara]

It sounds like OCD to me. Most people are able to ignore thoughts and they go away on their own. They can recognise that thoughts are just thoughts and don't need to be reacted to. If you cannot do that I think you should seek some specific treatment to help you with how to handle intrusive thoughts.