Interacting with people makes me want to kill myself

[The Unanswered Q]

Doesn't matter who it is I'm talking to, if I have to interact with someone for a long amount of time I always end up feeling horrible. Was at a social event today, saw a knife on a table and had to actively try not to stab myself with it. Don't even have to talk to them, just being around people feels awful. It's so draining, always feel completely dead inside afterwards.

 

[jewelxxet]

real as fuck

 

[getoutgirl]

Yup. That's why I keep to the house.
What is it for you that drains you? Is it comparison to them, social anxiety or what thoughts start bubbling for you then?

 

[The Unanswered Q]

Yup. That's why I keep to the house.
What is it for you that drains you? Is it comparison to them, social anxiety or what thoughts start bubbling for you then?

Honestly don't know why it's so draining.

 

[LittleMagician]

Doesn't matter who it is I'm talking to, if I have to interact with someone for a long amount of time I always end up feeling horrible. Was at a social event today, saw a knife on a table and had to actively try not to stab myself with it. Don't even have to talk to them, just being around people feels awful. It's so draining, always feel completely dead inside afterwards.

yeah same, there is only a select few people that don't have this affect on me but id say because most people are so blissfully unaware of the depravity of life and are distracted by menial stupid things that speaking to them feels like talking to a hollow box with no personality

 

[getoutgirl]

Honestly don't know why it's so draining.

well you could try and ponder that. You might not end up with an answer, but if you find some probable causes or general directions as to why it can at least make it a little easier knowing that. It's better than just general confusing dread at least. Take care <3