Inadvertant Dissuasion

[TiredHorse]

My mother knows I'm in a precarious place, and that I've tried to ctb recently (last night). To her credit, while she's very unhappy with the situation and has urged me to seek other paths, she accepts that I'm an adult and free to make my own choice. (Yes, I really did luck out and get a good one.)

Today, in a comment that I can tell was not meant to hit me as hard as it did, she mentioned that I am the glue that holds the family together. The pisser is that she's right. I am. I just hadn't noticed it before. And I really resent that that is the case.

Now I just need to decide what to do with that revelation.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

You cant live your life for other people, my 32years have taught me that at least.

 

[TiredHorse]

You cant live your life for other people, my 32years have taught me that at least.

Oh yes; after 49 years I know that. It's just an interesting new perspective.

I liked the old perspective better.

 

[Circles]

You cant live your life for other people, my 32years have taught me that at least.

Yep it will only fill the void for so long until you realize all you got is yourself.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

Same happened to me last night. At least, you got a more mercyful responce than I did from my parents. As mine are a couple of religious nuts who believe suicide is the biggest sin. If they were more understanding I would have more respect for them.

 

[TiredHorse]

As mine are a couple of religious nuts who believe suicide is the biggest sin

I am so very, very sorry. That is one of the elements of my family I am most grateful for: no religion.

 

[TheLastTrip]

I'm sorry that you had that responsibility and guilt put on you bud :(

 

[TAW122]

I agree with others here. While it can be fulfilling to some people to live for others, ultimately, at the end of the day, all you have is yourself and eventually, your values and interests must be considered and put forth before others.