Venting In a trauma bond with life

[softlysavage79]

Color me crazy, but it's the letting go that seems hard as hell. Reminds me being in a toxic abusive relationship, but unable to let go because of the trauma bond. Keep trying to gaslight myself that it isn't that bad and making excuses because I just cannot accept fully that this isn't working for me. I know I want to go, but I the actual doing is hard because it feels unfinished…and what if, or could I maybe rearrange things this way or that way to bridge the gap, all the while knowing that it's not a me thing. The world is just not good and makes me miserable. Ugh. Random thought of the day

 

[kunikuzushi]

ohh it all makes sense. i stay in toxic relationships for years before i finally get the guts to leave. I've just been too scared to leave life because I'm attached even though it's the worst thing for me

 

[VoidBlessed]

You're definitely on to something. I think this is part of why I couldn't commit in November even though I had a foolproof method.

 

[VitriolLD]

Color me crazy, but it's the letting go that seems hard as hell. Reminds me being in a toxic abusive relationship, but unable to let go because of the trauma bond. Keep trying to gaslight myself that it isn't that bad and making excuses because I just cannot accept fully that this isn't working for me. I know I want to go, but I the actual doing is hard because it feels unfinished…and what if, or could I maybe rearrange things this way or that way to bridge the gap, all the while knowing that it's not a me thing. The world is just not good and makes me miserable. Ugh. Random thought of the day

Yeah... I just broke up from a relationship I knew wasn't good for me and part of me regrets it, but another part of me knew I did the right thing.