In A Loop.

[vanillamilkshakes]

Does anyone else feel as if they are stuck in a loop? If I'm lucky, during the summer, my depression eases up a bit and I start to feel like maybe I have a future. But every time, without fail, something happens, and I end up knocked back to where I was. It's been like this for so long. Sometimes I get angry at myself for not having the guts to end it back when I was at my lowest.

I can't stop the small part of my brain telling me that there is hope.

 

[R. A.]

Glass half full/empty.
In bad periods I berate myself for not being serious enough and doing it because the huge systemic things crushing me will not change in my lifetime. On good days I legit feel like I can cope. I can literally perceive the happy hormones in my brain casting a spell and making me ignore reality.
Shit's fucked

 

[Cansado_Depressivo]

I'm really struggling with this. I went to therapy a few years ago, was discharged, and was doing well for about a year and a half, but now I've had a severe relapse of depression. Most of my days are bad, often for no apparent reason. And the good days don't last. But when I'm having a good day, I can be productive, happy, and solve problems. Yet the next day, mysteriously, it's like I'm at rock bottom. All of this is so exhausting