I'm too curious

[nonn_ee]

I've looked at my life over and over, me dying is really the best solution for everyone but my job, and I think they can handle it.

But I'm always curious. I want to know if I'm correct, but of course, if I do it I can't find out if I was right.

And that holds me back. That and my cowardice. Too scared to do anything right, including ctb.