• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block.

underscore_nine

underscore_nine

the sweet release
Feb 17, 2023
153
one day life feels so unbearable, the next things don't feel all that bad and things feel doable. Why can't my retarded fucking brain choose one, either live or die. I hate myself for backing out like this. I'm going to do it until i'm not. I just wish i had what it takes to choose a path and go for it. That being said i have plenty of motivation to perform academically and work on side projects. Just not sure what to do anymore.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: worthIess, murun_b and wontachievehappines
W

wontachievehappines

Looking for ctb partner
Sep 22, 2023
65
I relate to you. My will to ctb vs live and pursue academia/ publish work is 60/40. And the days that are doable for me are when I'm avoiding my family
 

Similar threads

ScholarOfDespair
Replies
5
Views
125
Suicide Discussion
ScholarOfDespair
ScholarOfDespair
G
Replies
0
Views
85
Suicide Discussion
geo
G
D
Replies
0
Views
155
Suicide Discussion
dudebl
D
P
Replies
3
Views
228
Suicide Discussion
PaxAmericaX
PaxAmericaX