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olumlazim

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Apr 2, 2025
19
Well, I've already bought everything besides benzodiazepines. In my case, I think unisom will be enough even though it won't help easing my anxious mind, it will make me sleep.

I've just swallowed my first metpamid (meto), it touched my tongue for a second and wow it's really bitter.

I will have one less meto from the protocol. The protocol I'm following:

April 9th, 20.00 - 1 metpamid
April 10th, 04.00 - 1 metpamid
April 10th, 12.00 - 1 metpamid
April 10th, 20.00 - 1 metpamid (no food, no water after this)
April 11th, 03.00 - 1000 mg paracetamol
April 11th, 03.20 - 3 metpamids + take out the digital scale, prepare SN solution, put a towel under the door, take out 2 market bags in case of vomiting, make yourself comfortable
April 11th, 03.50 - 2 unisom pills
April 11th, 04.00 - SN solution

I was waiting for the last thing to push me over the edge and it happened, that's why I'm taking one less meto. I just hope I won't gasp too loud and wake somebody up. I've been telling my dad that I keep having a sleep paralysis so maybe that will help me lie out of a situation where he comes in to check me. Right now, it's time for me to clean, erase, delete. So I'll do that. I will try to post as many as updates after the SN intake. Let me know if you have any advices, thanks y'all, I've learned a lot from this forum and its wonderful people.
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Experienced
Mar 12, 2025
279
I'm sorry that life has brought you to this, Thoughts and prayers Always.
 
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Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
166
i hope you find peace wherever you go
also if you will be able to update us after you take the SN it would be really helpful

♥️
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Only advice I would offer, is if you change your mind we'll still be here and wanting nothing but good for you. Best wishes for all going well and your finding peace and rest.
 
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olumlazim

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Apr 2, 2025
19
Thank you all ❤️ Yes, I will try my best to update after the SN intake 😊
 
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nevermeant2b

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Sep 11, 2023
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Please give your self time to reflect, things change in a heartbeat and you don't want to regret it once you've taken it
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find the peace you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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olumlazim

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Apr 2, 2025
19
I have to postpone it to April 14th as I won't be alone until then 🥲
 

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