Discussion I'm so sick of these manipulations..why does my decision to ctb has to be a flaw from mental illness

[fkyou]

I'm so sick of these manipulations..why does my decision to ctb has to be a flaw from mental illness..it could be the fact that I deserve things and can't take more losses than I already did in childhood.. should I be a punching bag that takes all the punches and still enjoys life? Is that what they want us to be like?

 

[_Gollum_]

They don't understand that when life has been beating you up for so long, CTB is the highest form of dignity and self-love.

 

[fkyou]

They don't understand that when life has been beating you up for so long, CTB is the highest form of dignity and self-love.

What do they not understand about the fact that I'd rather ctb than be an unemployed poor freak??? Ha? I can't make sense of it in my mind.they make me feel crazy

CTB is the highest form of dignity and self-love.

It definitely feels like more dignifying and "self love" than the alternatives they are giving me in this life.thats why I'm doing it in the first place.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I just think they can't relate. It always gers better for them, or they get over it.

 

[fkyou]

I just think they can't relate. It always gers better for them, or they get over it.

I think so too..it just didn't reach that bad for them..or they don't feel it..but that's the problem..if they don't even understand us then they can't speak for us or accuse us with their bs.