I’m so fake!

[Rachel74]

I do it every time someone asks me if I'm ok and I'm like yeah I'm doing really well. What utter bullshit I tell. My boss today who knew of my last suicide attempt said how are you, I said really well apart from my broken toe, well he said you look really well.

 

[Shamana]

Most people really aren't looking for sob stories. It's just exchanging pleasentries.

 

[GlowingCactus]

So what ? People ask you how you're feeling because it's the socially acceptable thing to do but most of them don't really want to know it if you're feeling unwell. So I don't see anything wrong with not being truthful.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Coworker: Hey how things going today George?
Me: Well I feel down because my cat died.
Coworker: Sorry to hear that.
Me: Yeah and my mom died of cancer a few days ago.
Coworker: Sounds like your going through a lot.
Me: Yeah I could be doing better because two days ago my car got stolen.
Coworker: I had a friend that had their car stolen, I can only imagine what all this is like.
Me: Yeah then add on top of that, my brother is still in the hospital a month after getting hit by a drunk driver.
Coworker: I think I'm going to go now.
Me: I feeling down can we talk about it? Because, the other day my cousin was walking downtown in Alaska and a piece of ice feel from a skyscraper and hit my cousin he's now dead?
Coworker: We'll talk, later gotta run, boss needs me.

LMAO

 

[RedAlert]

What do you expect people to do if you where to tell them the truth? They can't do much but listen and try to relate, maybe they will try to make you feel guilty for revealing the way you truly feel so you would shut up about it next time they ask how you are doing. Plus mentioning these things at the workplace is unprofessional, there is work to be done and everyone has to be mentally ready to focus on work. Maybe you could reveal your true feelings when work is finished for the day and maybe they will ask you to have a coffee with them so you could talk about it in more detail...But this day and age people just want to go back home and escape from all the bullshit as fast as possible.

There's no real point in telling the truth if you have enough strength to keep that mask of sanity on until you get back home from work.

That's why i drank almost everyday to keep that mask on at work, but in the end the drinking caught up with me, co-workers began to suspect my unhealthy habit and i was thrown in the trash and replaced. I'm not saying my boss was an asshole for laying off a drunken fool, besides who would keep such people in the workplace? But i never ever told anyone my true feelings, they never knew pain i was in and they never will.

 

[BipolarExpat]

Coworker:
Hey how's it goin' BE, how was your weekend?

Me:
Suicidal. Weekend was Bursting with anxiety, you?

Coworker:
HaHaHa, right. Yeah, it was good. I went to a party.

 

[Sweet emotion]

I do it every time someone asks me if I'm ok and I'm like yeah I'm doing really well. What utter bullshit I tell. My boss today who knew of my last suicide attempt said how are you, I said really well apart from my broken toe, well he said you look really well.

I know what you mean. People think because we look well that there is nothing wrong with us. I have the highest ranking pain condition in medical history yet I look like a normal person. I've had family member scream at me and say YOU ARENT DYING! Do they think that I just decided to stop living 14 years ago when I had a life I adored? I tell 3 people in my life what is really going on with me. Other than that, I've learned that people really don't care and if it has nothing to due with them, they don't want to hear about someone else's problems. There are some wonderful people on this group though so if you ever want to tell us how you are really doing we are here to listen and help in the best way possible. Maybe when I'm dead everyone who doubted me will believe me.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I always lie about me feeling okay. I've become so good at faking it, everyone believes me.

 

[Sweet emotion]

You know what bothers me? When people ask you how you're feeling and you tell them you just want to die and they say.......No you don't. You don't mean that. Don't even say that. Well why the hell do they ask then right? Some people don't understand that there are a lot worse things in life than death. Like the physical illnesses I have which is going to lead to my death. I wish people could feel what I feel for a week and tell me if they think they could spend the rest of their lives in such excruciating pain and exile. I've already done 14 years of painful solitary confinement. I'm 34. I don't want to live a long life because I'm not living. I'm merely existing.

 

[Rachel74]

You know what bothers me? When people ask you how you're feeling and you tell them you just want to die and they say.......No you don't. You don't mean that. Don't even say that. Well why the hell do they ask then right? Some people don't understand that there are a lot worse things in life than death. Like the physical illnesses I have which is going to lead to my death. I wish people could feel what I feel for a week and tell me if they think they could spend the rest of their lives in such excruciating pain and exile. I've already done 14 years of painful solitary confinement. I'm 34. I don't want to live a long life because I'm not living. I'm merely existing.

I get that from family and my partner. I just say well you try living with my head FFS

What do you expect people to do if you where to tell them the truth? They can't do much but listen and try to relate, maybe they will try to make you feel guilty for revealing the way you truly feel so you would shut up about it next time they ask how you are doing. Plus mentioning these things at the workplace is unprofessional, there is work to be done and everyone has to be mentally ready to focus on work. Maybe you could reveal your true feelings when work is finished for the day and maybe they will ask you to have a coffee with them so you could talk about it in more detail...But this day and age people just want to go back home and escape from all the bullshit as fast as possible.

There's no real point in telling the truth if you have enough strength to keep that mask of sanity on until you get back home from work.

That's why i drank almost everyday to keep that mask on at work, but in the end the drinking caught up with me, co-workers began to suspect my unhealthy habit and i was thrown in the trash and replaced. I'm not saying my boss was an asshole for laying off a drunken fool, besides who would keep such people in the workplace? But i never ever told anyone my true feelings, they never knew pain i was in and they never will.

The only people that know my bipolar are my family and my boss and a close work colleague who if you'd said to me last year we'd be friends I'd have laughed at you.
She's another one that tried and failed suicide.

 

[Squiddy]

I also fake being okay when someone asks aside from being on here where I feel I can express how I feel

 

[woxihuanni]

I think the biggest risk in sharing how you feel is that of hearing 'You have to take care of yourself/You are responsible for yourself'.

Not really, I can just die.

 

[Mr2005]

It's just standard practice and I absolutely dread it. If they knew me at all they'd know I don't want to be asked. Giving them an honest answer is one way to guarantee they won't ask again

 

[Sweet emotion]

I get that from family and my partner. I just say well you try living with my head FFS

The only people that know my bipolar are my family and my boss and a close work colleague who if you'd said to me last year we'd be friends I'd have laughed at you.
She's another one that tried and failed suicide.

I'm so sorry you're hurting so bad sweetie. You have to do what is right for you and no one else. No one has to live this life but you.

 

[Morphinekiss]

I had a coworker that would always respond to my fake answers with "well you look like shit!" One day when she asked how I felt I responded with "I feel like shit" and she just nodded and said welcome to the real world, oh and you look like shit.

I still want to punch that old lady

 

[SinisterKid]

I feel like shit, I look like shit, I smell like shit, in fact, I am shit, call me Jack

But if anyone else dares to say so [to my face] they are likely going to take a trip to see their orthodontist.

The real head mess though is when not only do you say it, you start to think it as well [I say I am ok so I must be ok]

 

[FinallyTime]

I have recently stopped lying about it. If someone asks I tell them. It's quite refreshing and is actually making me feel a bit better about things.

Some people have started asking me more often about how I'm feeling, with genuine concern, othersbjust don't talk to me now. Perobably as they don't know what to say.

Either way. It's making me feel better.