I'm receiving the silent treatment as punishment from the person I love (loved)

[Crematoryy]

I'm blocked on all social media. There wasn't a declared breakup, there wasn't a big argument between me and the other person. And guess what, that person vanished, disappeared. This isn't the first time this has happened, it must be the fifth. In a few months, they'll come back, say they like me, and that they regret what they did. I'm being psychologically abused in this relationship. I'm being punished by the person I love and am willing to sacrifice everything I have. I receive silence instead of attention. I never failed, not even once, in this relationship. This world is so terribly unfair! I feel like ending the lives of multitudes! I gave my heart to a horrible person. One day there was a connection that gave my life meaning and hope. Now my affectionate memories have become a weapon used against me. Please, I need strength to leave this relationship. But I can't get this demon out of my mind! I'm being psychologically abused.

Spoiler: I remember the day I first had sex

I couldn't stop telling you how special you were, how much I missed you, how much I wanted to be with you. There was true love. I received everything without possessing money, beauty, or health. I never forgot your moans, I never forgot your body. I never forgot the times I masturbated you. How could my relationship devolve into a sequence of psychological abuse that is making me cry? How can the same person hurt me so much without feeling empathy for me? How could the person I knew have changed? I will never be able to forget the person you were, unless that's the only way to survive emotionally. Know that I was whole from beginning to end. And that everything I did was driven by the fear of losing you.

 

[Redacted24]

It's really difficult to build up the courage to escape an abuser. It took me years of abuse before I even realized I was her victim... after 20+ years together.
She kept ratcheting up her punishments and finally started with the silent treatment.
I kept count of the number of words she spoke to me in a year. Despite living in the same house, and seeing each other daily (and her ignoring my presence, averting her gaze when she had to pass through a room where I was) - her word count was about 100 words total.

In a whole year. 100 words. Never replying to my "good morning" or how was your day or anything. Only words were to tell me not to help with groceries or not to use that towel, stuff like that.

Our three young adult children lived with that too. I'm sure it messed them up.

But me? It led me to an impulsive attempt, which led me to this site, and here I found others that get it and they continue to give me momentum to push through. The divorce will be final soon and we no longer live together.

The scars will take a long time to form but... get away... end this relationship and be yourself. You have the right to be happy.
Pulling for you!

 

[DoomsdayCTB]

Yes I am in a situation like this...and that's why I'm here. It's awful. You are definitely being psychologically abused. What I had to do was delete the apps off my home screen and app menu. For example if I absolutely needed to get on Instagram, I have to force myself to use the website and login. It has to be a total out of sight, out of mind thing. And hopefully one day you'll be so disgusted by that immaturity, you'll never even care to hear from him again. I know it's hard to unfriend and delete, so this is a good babystep in the anxious-attachment we are struggling with. Let someone with emotional intelligence find you and appreciate you. No one deserves to be toyed with like this. Not us. Let them feel it.