Venting I’m in a very scary situation

[Iaminimmensepain_1]

Hi y'all it's been years since I've been diagnosed with OCD and I'm currently going through a very scary situation where I can't even tell people because they won't understand. I constantly feel suffocated and breathless due to anxiety attacks and depression. I feel like it's my time to go because I have no other option but I'm scared that SN won't work probably because god might not let me do it. I could try but if there is a god that exists, I'm sure he hates me enough to not allow me to leave this place. Please help guys I'm very scared and I don't know what to do. I have acquired sn and it's going to arrive in 5 days but I don't know if it will work

 

[sweetcreep]

are you following any type of protocol? having one in place will help your chances.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really torturous what you go through, I'm sorry you have to suffer so unbearably in this cruel existence, it's just so dreadful and terrible to me how there's all this suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[Nightfoot]

I'm sorry you're going through this. Hoping you can find a way through your suffering.