I'm gonna ctb tomorrow (hopefully)

[WEIRDOOOXDDDD]

My method is by ingesting yew I don't have a lot of it but based on how much I weigh I think its enough to do something. Either way I'm also planning to try and cut to even less limit my survival chances and also because I want to feel the pain one last time. I plan on sending my friends some messages, not a lot I don't want to get emotional. I'm gonna go into the woods cuz there's this church in the middle of the woods. Never been there but I have been on the road to there and just gave up because of my poor stamina I don't plan to go all the way there but I mostly just wanna 'get lost' even though I'm gonna be on a path still.

For my parents I don't care they can go fuck themselves. My brother? Annoying sometimes but other wise I love him. My friends? Theyre the reason I may chicken out.


Anyways I am so glad I met some of you this community means a lot to me even though people think it's 'evil'. I'mma send a text tomorrow before lunch and then before I'm gonna start going towards the path. Love y'all❤

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I never met you on here, or seen your posts, but you sound extremely pleasant and I wish that I had. :(
I hope that you don't experience a lot of pain or agony with your method, and that it winds up peaceful.
I feel the exact same way about my parents, they really can go fuck themselves. Abusive little shits.
Above all, I want you to have peace, and I'm sure you will be very much missed.

Goodbye

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Your parents should have provided you love and compassion supposed to be given by all parents to their own children. I'm sorry you are deciding this way. Whatever happens, I hope you find your peace

BTY are you sure how much yew you should take?

 

[WEIRDOOOXDDDD]

Your parents should have provided you love and compassion supposed to be given by all parents to their own children. I'm sorry you are deciding this way. Whatever happens, I hope you find your peace

BTY are you sure how much yew you should take?

Aw thanks! About the Yew part not really. I don't even have 1 g but all my life I had classes in school that told me I would die if I even ate one leaf or a bit of bark and I'm also really thin like I'm 47 kg + you can see my ribs pretty clearly (I don't have an ed I just was thin my entire life)
HI guys ts 8.30 now just woke up! The day is so beautiful I'm kinda sad it's gonna turn out this way but what ever it's been raining a lot anyways. My mom isn't home and I can finally not be bitched around. I for some reason have very short stamina and I can't do chores for too long without being totally exhausted. Prob depression

My method is by ingesting yew I don't have a lot of it but based on how much I weigh I think its enough to do something. Either way I'm also planning to try and cut to even less limit my survival chances and also because I want to feel the pain one last time. I plan on sending my friends some messages, not a lot I don't want to get emotional. I'm gonna go into the woods cuz there's this church in the middle of the woods. Never been there but I have been on the road to there and just gave up because of my poor stamina I don't plan to go all the way there but I mostly just wanna 'get lost' even though I'm gonna be on a path still.

For my parents I don't care they can go fuck themselves. My brother? Annoying sometimes but other wise I love him. My friends? Theyre the reason I may chicken out.


Anyways I am so glad I met some of you this community means a lot to me even though people think it's 'evil'. I'mma send a text tomorrow before lunch and then before I'm gonna start going towards the path. Love y'all❤

 

[WEIRDOOOXDDDD]

My method is by ingesting yew I don't have a lot of it but based on how much I weigh I think its enough to do something. Either way I'm also planning to try and cut to even less limit my survival chances and also because I want to feel the pain one last time. I plan on sending my friends some messages, not a lot I don't want to get emotional. I'm gonna go into the woods cuz there's this church in the middle of the woods. Never been there but I have been on the road to there and just gave up because of my poor stamina I don't plan to go all the way there but I mostly just wanna 'get lost' even though I'm gonna be on a path still.

For my parents I don't care they can go fuck themselves. My brother? Annoying sometimes but other wise I love him. My friends? Theyre the reason I may chicken out.


Anyways I am so glad I met some of you this community means a lot to me even though people think it's 'evil'. I'mma send a text tomorrow before lunch and then before I'm gonna start going towards the path. Love y'all❤

Hi guys this is the last post for now if I succeed. I'm so thankful for meeting y'all❤

 

[darksouls]

good luck
hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you desire

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[WEIRDOOOXDDDD]

FU

My method is by ingesting yew I don't have a lot of it but based on how much I weigh I think its enough to do something. Either way I'm also planning to try and cut to even less limit my survival chances and also because I want to feel the pain one last time. I plan on sending my friends some messages, not a lot I don't want to get emotional. I'm gonna go into the woods cuz there's this church in the middle of the woods. Never been there but I have been on the road to there and just gave up because of my poor stamina I don't plan to go all the way there but I mostly just wanna 'get lost' even though I'm gonna be on a path still.

For my parents I don't care they can go fuck themselves. My brother? Annoying sometimes but other wise I love him. My friends? Theyre the reason I may chicken out.


Anyways I am so glad I met some of you this community means a lot to me even though people think it's 'evil'. I'mma send a text tomorrow before lunch and then before I'm gonna start going towards the path. Love y'all❤

im such a fucking pussy bro. I went to the Place started looking at the Yew intensely then it almost got blewn away by the wind. I didn't even touch the blades for some reason in that moment I saw the reason why life was worth it even though now it isn't. Then I just destroyed the yew so now I have no fucking yew. Fuck me

 

[Give Up The Ghost]

FU

im such a fucking pussy bro. I went to the Place started looking at the Yew intensely then it almost got blewn away by the wind. I didn't even touch the blades for some reason in that moment I saw the reason why life was worth it even though now it isn't. Then I just destroyed the yew so now I have no fucking yew. Fuck me

Sorry things didn't turn out the way you wanted man. Don't blame yourself, SI is strong and it hits you hard as soon as CTB becomes real. What are you going to do now?

 

[WEIRDOOOXDDDD]

IIdk get more yew some Day. I dont have a better way of ctb-ing. But possibly gonna try something that works quicker cuz yew takes like 1h for symptoms and about 2 h for sudden death. Imo that's really long and the anxiety through all of that is probs through the roof

Sorry things didn't turn out the way you wanted man. Don't blame yourself, SI is strong and it hits you hard as soon as CTB becomes real. What are you going to do now?