I'm glad it'll be over soon

[Lutembëe]

There's no hope for me, I'm plagued by depression and anxiety. Every day is unbearable and the distractions don't stop me from having these intrusive thoughts. Medication and alcohol help me cope with this anxiety, but it is no longer sustainable. I can't do anything anymore and there is nothing I can do. I laugh at people who tell me there's still hope. I've been dreaming of killing myself for 10 years now, life is an ordeal I can no longer face. Maybe "I have it all" and I'm not even happy, that's not going to get me out of my deep depression. I'm trapped.
By the end of the lockdown it'll be over, and this idea is the only one that's calming me down right now. It's all set. I have SN, tramadol and sleeping pills. I can't manage to find AE in France. I'll do without it, wish me luck.

I just had an anxiety attack, I took tramadol and alcohol. That managed to calm me down a bit. On Wednesday I have an appointment with my psychiatrist, it will probably be the last one. She won't be able to do anything to stop me, she knows I'll kill myself soon.

 

[Kumachan]

Tramadol, although a nice painkiller in itself, may increase chances of vomiting, like most other opiates it makes you nauseated even on empty stomach. Basically its exactly the opposite of an antiemetic drug. Personally, would not risk it with SN

 

[Lutembëe]

Tramadol, although a nice painkiller in itself, may increase chances of vomiting, like most other opiates it makes you nauseated even on empty stomach. Basically its exactly the opposite of an antiemetic drug. Personally, would not risk it with SN

Oh I didn't know that, then I won't take the risk and I won't take tramadol when I CTB. Thank you

 

[_Minsk]

Can you absorb it sub lingual?