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TotalEclipse

TotalEclipse

Remember me as a dreamer.
Apr 2, 2025
69
My opiods haven't arrived yet. It's probably too soon to suspect I've been scammed, but I'm still so tired of waiting. I wish I weren't too retarded to read between the lines and figure out where the SN sources are. I've always been horrible at puzzle type things. I just want to DIE. I guess it isn't the end of the world if I don't get these pills because I can just try again with another vendor when I get my checks at the end of the month. I don't even need them to be strong enough to kill me on their own, I just want something to knock me out enough for hanging without SI and im completely unable to tolerate the taste of alcohol.

But having to spend these nights without a way to move forward with my death is so disappointing and enraging. I take the fury of being unable to kill myself out on myself through burning my arm. Genuinely, nothing has ever made me angrier than when I want to die but I can't. I just want to MOVE ON.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,978
Don't be so hard on yourself for not figuring out the SN sources. I haven't been able to find the latest, greatest DMC, either.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,978
Do you want it?
No, I'm good. Really was just trying to make the point to the op that it's not that easy (anymore) to find it. Thanks for the offer, though. Actually, you're the only one to even offer to give it to me.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,656
I just wish to be gone as well, all I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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