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synthcadia

synthcadia

dissociated angel.
Jul 8, 2023
269
i think once i come back from china, i'm done.

i have bpd, did, dissociations, and i am so tired of this existence.

the guy i liked blocked me, i feel like i have no future, i feel like a failure, i feel like a loser, i'm so dissociated and emotionless that i can't feel upset.

i want my misery to end.

i'm so sad and tired and nothing brings me joy. i'm not gonna get anywhere with music or being a vtuber. i'm never gonna be able to meet my idols.

i wanna ctb. or something.

i witnessed someone overdose in a video call. i wish i could do that.

i got 410 mgs of prozac. but i think that's a painful way to go.

i'm so tired. i think i am going to just dissociate until i'm done with school, and then get my SN and go with my original plan of 35.

i have nothing going for me.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Prozac isn't too likely to be a successfull method I fear. Projectile vomiting and potential seizures at excessively high administrations seems a more probable outcome, sorry.
Despite being one of the most commonly prescribed SSRIs there's good reason it features so seldom in reported suicide fatalities. IMG 5101
 
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Electra

Electra

The relief of giving in to destruction
Jul 1, 2024
581
I don't think any antidepressant is a good choice for ctb due to its high therapeutic window.
 
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synthcadia

synthcadia

dissociated angel.
Jul 8, 2023
269
sorry i'm so late to this but i think you are right

i'm going to save my money for sn when i am back from china
 

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