Help I'm done. Give me advice

[alstroemeria55]

I live in the middle of a war. I have past and ongoing trauma that no matter what methods I've used just don't get better. It makes me a burden that is impossible to love. The one person I ever had a deep connection with left me without saying anything. I feel hopeless that things will ever get better, the world just seems to get worse and the daily mantra that repeats in my head is how much I don't want to live. Every second I spend awake or struggling to fall asleep is hell. I've SHed increasingly just to get the pain from my soul and out to my body. I am angry with God for allowing me to suffer alone. I don't feel joy or true enjoyment from anything anymore, all I do is a feeble attempt at distraction.
I'm trying to find the most accessible way for me to CTB.
Currently my options are either:
1) Clonazepam+Codeine+Alcohol concoction and go to sleep:
Is crushing the pills and mixing them into alcohol better than mixing them into water and then drinking the alcohol? How does the percentage of the alcohol affect this process?
I've been so devastated that I've been unable to eat for several days. Does doing this on an empty stomach increase the chance of success?
2) SWB in bathtub: How to effectively black out and not struggle with the pain of drowning or the likelihood of failure?
Any relevant feedback/recommendation would be appreciated.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/why-ods-fail-miserably-a-guide.181394/

Non-methods that should not be attempted

mod note: this has been added to the suicide resource compilation at the top. This has been made in response to the ever increasing amount of posts made about highly unlikely methods. Please read before posting about one of these methods or feel free to link if someone does post about them...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[hell toupee]

Try reading the forums a little bit - there is all kinds of information here.

OD's rarely work.

I just posted a possible method using a neckbrace and a blood pressure cuff. You might want to check that out if you can obtain those 2 items.

 

[alstroemeria55]

I have read around for a while, and that ODs aren't recommended. I suppose I would have just liked a few points answered before I try anything. Thanks

The neckbrace thing is interesting