Sammystink
Sammy
- Mar 30, 2026
- 28
It's been awhile since I was last active here..
Last time I was here I had just gotten out of the ward, and I was optimistic I was going to do better.. Now I've been in IOP for a few weeks and im just getting worse again..
Last night I had another attempt, I tied a noose and was ready to give up.. My friends stopped me and helped me through a panic attack.. I love them but I can't keep going anymore, no matter what happens I'll be stuck like this forever..
Recently I had one of my childhood bestfriends cut contact with me silently not even telling me why.. It really hurts, but it confirms to me that I deserve this, and that I need this..
I've lost plenty of friends, either people dying or leaving.. And at this point im sure that im the weak link...
I plan to ctb soon, but Idk how or when.. I feel pathetic and im running out of options..
I'll find a way soon enough..
Last time I was here I had just gotten out of the ward, and I was optimistic I was going to do better.. Now I've been in IOP for a few weeks and im just getting worse again..
Last night I had another attempt, I tied a noose and was ready to give up.. My friends stopped me and helped me through a panic attack.. I love them but I can't keep going anymore, no matter what happens I'll be stuck like this forever..
Recently I had one of my childhood bestfriends cut contact with me silently not even telling me why.. It really hurts, but it confirms to me that I deserve this, and that I need this..
I've lost plenty of friends, either people dying or leaving.. And at this point im sure that im the weak link...
I plan to ctb soon, but Idk how or when.. I feel pathetic and im running out of options..
I'll find a way soon enough..
