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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
136
Well I'm here and now I'm dealing with this shit. I'm tired and I'm ready to CTB. I need more time but what am I supposed to do anymore? I won't help myself. I'm done with my life at 20 years old. Whatever happens will happen.
 
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Alumina

The king is dead long live the king
May 29, 2026
39
no cord to ctb with? why do you need more time
 
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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
136
no cord to ctb with? why do you need more time
No. I need more time to do it fully without failure. I can't because I'm now going to the psych ward 😢
 
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xXSufferingXx

Enlightened
Feb 21, 2025
1,217
it's extremely risky to utter those words to a doctor, its the exact same as talking to police.
this is not advice at all, but some would say "LIE LIE LIE", because otherwise they're gonna ruin your life even more than before by putting you in the nuthouse.

no matter how nice they are, they are legally forced to report you as suicidal.
 
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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
136
it's extremely risky to utter those words to a doctor, its the exact same as talking to police.
this is not advice at all, but some would say "LIE LIE LIE", because otherwise they're gonna ruin your life even more than before by putting you in the nuthouse.

no matter how nice they are, they are legally forced to report you as suicidal.
Well it's now known so I'm screwed 😤
 
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LittleJem

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Jul 3, 2019
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They'll try medication on you. If you're lucky, it will help.

Hmmmm. To leave the psych ward you have to pretend to be 'fine' and say you are 'fine'. I have been doing a bad job of that, so am currently stuck in here.

At least you get fed three times a day, and maybe benzos
 
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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
136
exactly. sorry to hear
Well I'm going to be the nut of this nuthouse to be in soon. Now I wait for their slow asses to get me there.
They'll try medication on you. If you're lucky, it will help.

Hmmmm. To leave the psych ward you have to pretend to be 'fine' and say you are 'fine'. I have been doing a bad job of that, so am currently stuck in here.

At least you get fed three times a day, and maybe benzos
Let's hope I'm benzo'd the fucked out hehe 😜 So they can throw the drugs all they want. I'll get myself out in no time :) Also how do you still use sasu while you're there?? I'm just at the hospital so I'm not restricted but my local psych wards never let me…
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,885
Different country, probs. I'm so obvious on here already that I'm not putting my country, even though I've put it other places. Feel like crawling up the walls. Don't know how to cope with being alone and doing nothing like this, it's been so long since I had a life.

I'm sure they will give you benzos. If I didn't have benzos today would be a lot worse. It's just, when I leave, they won't give me them, and I'm not that functional on them.

I got my own wifi here so not restricted.
 
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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
136
Different country, probs. I'm so obvious on here already that I'm not putting my country, even though I've put it other places. Feel like crawling up the walls. Don't know how to cope with being alone and doing nothing like this, it's been so long since I had a life.

I'm sure they will give you benzos. If I didn't have benzos today would be a lot worse. It's just, when I leave, they won't give me them, and I'm not that functional on them.

I got my own wifi here so not restricted.
I'm In the Western US so yeah we could be in different countries. You're outside US? Thats all I ask.
 
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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
136
Waiting sucks.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,489
Prononcer ces mots à un médecin est extrêmement risqué, c'est exactement la même chose que de parler à la police.
Ceci n'est absolument pas un conseil, mais certains diraient « MENSONGE, MENSONGE, MENSONGE », car sinon ils vont ruiner votre vie encore plus qu'avant en vous faisant interner.

Aussi sympathiques soient-ils, ils sont légalement tenus de vous signaler comme suicidaire.
My psy says that I am suicidal and he doesn't act.
 
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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
136
I'm out now and have been since June 7th. Doing good.
 
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Isolatedloner

I’m not in this world, I’m in my head.
Dec 14, 2024
136
Yes but I'm still going through a lot but there's a lot more hope for many things.
 
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