i'm alone

[takezo]

I feel so alone because no one around me can see the things the same way as i see

 

[MissStarr]

In regards to anything in particular? Or general? I've been feeling a little of this lately and am curious to hear your perspective

 

[kkatt]

I feel so alone because I am alone.
I have pushed away everyone that ever meant anything to me.
All I have is my dad,who is my entire world. He's been through so much tragedy in his life and I had promised not to put him through more. But now I can't stop thinking of how it will be when he dies. I can't stop crying and the only way to cope seems to be in ensuring I go first, although that goes against everything I had promised.
If just thinking about life without him is this unbearable,how would it be if I did hold out to spare him the pain?

 

[Whited Sepulchre]

I feel so alone because I am alone.
I have pushed away everyone that ever meant anything to me.
All I have is my dad,who is my entire world. He's been through so much tragedy in his life and I had promised not to put him through more. But now I can't stop thinking of how it will be when he dies. I can't stop crying and the only way to cope seems to be in ensuring I go first, although that goes against everything I had promised.
If just thinking about life without him is this unbearable,how would it be if I did hold out to spare him the pain?

On the same boat. Just my pop is a backstabbing prick and my sibling is my entire life. They dun want me dead cuz of a promise I made when our mother died when we were little. They hurt whenever they see me struggling and mentioning death like it would be a sweet release. They're damaged in their own way, but sadly they are pro-life and abhor the thought of suicide.
I'm pretty sure ur pop will be heartbroken if u leave him. As much as u have no one left but him, he might be the same. But if ur fear takes hold of u too firmly, make sure he knows u really love him.

 

[Epsilon0]

Aren't we all?

 

[takezo]

Aren't we all?

yes, i guess i made this stupid question just bc i'm just weak, typical human behaviour

 

[Evermore]

yes, i guess i made this stupid question just bc i'm just weak, typical human behaviour

I don't think it's stupid and I don't think it makes you weak . I often feeling lonely even in company and it's hard when you feel like other people don't understand . Sorry you're feeling this way

 

[sadbunny]

What do you see? Maybe I can relate

 

[takezo]

i see people not giving a shit about the why of anything, standing in the surface, being involved contstantly in activities or dinamics that seem stupid to me, not being good because the don't know how to reason. Being good or bad it's not the problem, the problem is they couldn't even to be good or bad because they are sheeps. That is how i feel about most of people around me
i explain miself so bad, specially in english, another reason why i have problems to connect with others