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Young

Young

Student
Dec 8, 2024
112
I'm 25 years old. Life has been cruel to me. I have some huge plans coming up. Sadly, I can't share them because they are too specific and it would reveal my identity right away.

If by 35 years old, my life still feels like shit, I will ctb. No excuses.

I know 35 isn't old, but I feel like I'm wasting my prime years in a place that I don't like. My strategy will require lots of work and consistency. Again, if it doesn't work out, I quit. Feeling extremely butthurt that I wasted my youth achieving pretty much nothing, and the fact that everyone around me seems so happy hurts a lot more.

I have the almost-perfect method if I choose to ctb.

I'm curious to know how you feel generally, and what your straregy is from now on. Don't have to give details if you don't want.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,082
No strategy. I'm going to ctb next year. That's all there is to it. No more waiting and seeing, no more trying, no more. I'm tired, I'm suffering, I'm done.
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
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Circumstances can change in the blink of an eye. Especially at this age. Many of the peers you view as happy now will be divorced, squeezed out of dying industries professionally, give birth to problem children, etc. Put blinders on and grind. 25 is nothing. Factoring in a COVID handicap, you're more like 19-20. But be careful, although you are likely entering your prime right now, 40 will be here in the blink of an eye. If something clearly isn't working, abandon it and try something else. Don't be afraid to pivot. Save and invest as much as possible. And investing doesn't mean recklessly trading crypto.

Good luck on this next decade.
 
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Death is my goal

Death is my goal

pathetic failure
Aug 25, 2022
516
that's a very long time
 
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4everHeartBroken

4everHeartBroken

Experienced
Feb 11, 2024
291
"the fact that everyone around me seems so happy hurts a lot more."
I just want to let you know that people are typically never as happy as they appear, especially if you're judging by their social media pages. People are master pretenders, especially when it comes to social media. They might not feel as bad as you right now, but they probably aren't as happy as they make themselves appear. There is a lot of suffering on this planet. Some people try to hide it behind their "happy" posts.

I'm glad you're at least giving yourself 10 years… at least you're giving yourself a chance. You are definitely still so young (to me anyway!) and still have time for some things to change. I wish you the best and so much love. ❤️
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,622
It's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing but anyway I wish you the best in what you decide.
 
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VaporSelf

Member
Nov 17, 2024
10
I can't imagine another day
 
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