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Anon_Guy

Anon_Guy

2025 IS MY YEAR
Dec 29, 2024
44
Title.

I got in a hotel, took a shower, sent scheculed mesages for the people I love on Monday.
The moment I publish this, I drank my first SN solution.
I didn't eat for the whole day.
I don't have any supplementary drugs whatsoever, no meto or benzo.
I tried but it's too hard and long to wait compared to SN.
The moment I got my SN I've wanted to do it, I'm too weak and impatient, I couldn't wait any longer.
I've heard a lot of people have succeeded with only SN, I have to be one of them.
If I have to, I'll throw up a dozen times and make enough SN drinks until I have no grams left.
I need to be long gone by Sunday.
I'll try to update about me feeling dizzy, throwing up, making a second SN solution or laying down.
Taste disgusting
ready to thow up
I have a vomt bag
two more SN drinks are already prepared just in case
now we wait
in 10 minutes I should be unconcious
*12
I don't feel throwing up
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,345
Please remember there is no shame if you change your mind. I do hope you find the peace you are striving for. Know we are all here for you and want you to be comfortable. My heart goes with you. 🫂🫂🫂🫂
 
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Anon_Guy

Anon_Guy

2025 IS MY YEAR
Dec 29, 2024
44
i think my head is getting hot tho, might be stress
oh, i feel like i'll throw up
i'm burping
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,060
I hope it's a well thought out decision. Peace be on your journey.
 
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Kalista

Failed hard to pull the trigger - Now using SN
Feb 5, 2023
454
leave well
 
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Anon_Guy

Anon_Guy

2025 IS MY YEAR
Dec 29, 2024
44
nothing happening, no throwing up or unconscious, should i drink one more?
 
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SmilingNoMore

SmilingNoMore

Paragon
Nov 25, 2024
954
I hope you are in peace, wherever you are, sending love to where you find yourself.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
2,251
One hour since last post. Hopefully you found your peace. 🕯️
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,413
I 1005 agree with others here, put everything down the rain and get a good night rest.

CTB is one and done, no do overs ever.

I am 100% pro-choice, however, on this occasion, I get such a very strong feeling that you should reconsider, as you are family on here and the sun will come up in the morning with a new bright day and everyone here will still be wanting to know that you are ok and still with us here.

I have had 2 attempts and looking back, especially at the last one, I had a 100% meltdown emotionally and I regret my actions that led to 2 weeks in a hospital and nasty court fight about me being commented to a state-run facility for at least one year.

Lots of hugs and hope that you are doing great.

Walter
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,815
Every good wish to you, I hope you have achieved your desires and are at peace.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,819
I hope you found peace. 🕯️
 
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justcallmeJ

justcallmeJ

<3
Nov 9, 2023
418
i hope you are at peace <3
 
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Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
715
Rest in peace
 
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Princess_Kitty

Princess_Kitty

Lost kitty
Jan 4, 2024
204
I hope you've found peace!
 
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AviG

AviG

The trouble with being Born
Oct 15, 2024
8
Rest now :heart:
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,582
I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you search for.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,956
May peace be yours.
 
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APeacefulPlace

APeacefulPlace

Ape
Dec 2, 2024
298
May you rest peacefully now. 🕊️
 
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GoSan1

GoSan1

Misfit
Nov 7, 2024
301
I hope you are now where you always wanted to be.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod
Jun 2, 2024
2,087
nothing but love and peace 🫂🫶
 
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human909

human909

Banned
Dec 30, 2024
593
I wish you good luck and i hope you find the peace you've been searching for.
 
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waistcoat

waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
315
This was a heart breaking post, I hope you went peacefully, you will be missed by us all. ♥️🕯️
 
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depressedinsomniac

depressedinsomniac

Student
Dec 29, 2024
123
this post hit hard....i am happy for them...it's such a hard thing to do....
 
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deleteduser853695

I swear I tried my best
Feb 26, 2024
119
May you have found peace. Rest well.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,863
no posts since 2:47 AM, rest in peace
 
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alivebutnotliving

alivebutnotliving

“The suffering said we go around”
Dec 16, 2024
34
<33 rest well
 
ihatemyselfwanttodi

ihatemyselfwanttodi

Experienced
Jan 26, 2025
296
Rest well ❤️ I'm sorry I didn't respond to your last message in time.
 
yearofluigi

yearofluigi

(🏳️‍⚧️she/her) The L stands for "winner"
Nov 19, 2024
74
Goodbye and rest well 🫂
 
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Q-Q

Q-Q

Member
Dec 2, 2023
10
rest in peace, i hope that it didn't hurt
 
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