Discussion If you're planning on CTB, what are some things you'll regret not seeing/doing?

[spicegrill]

Warning: This thread is not meant to discourage anyone. Please do what is right for you, whatever that might be.

So I'm planning to go in August, as still I have some things to sort out. Here's some stuff I'll regret not getting to see, from most regret to least:

1. I won't see Hunter x Hunter being completed. Pretty much one of the best pieces of media I've seen out of anime/manga, and there's no way it'll be done by August
2. The Community movie. I'm a big fan and the filming is gonna begin in the summer, so it won't be out by then. That sucks big time.
3. No season 4 of The Boys for me, it'll be out late 2023/early 2024. I was excited to see where the story would go, but there's no way I will.
4. I won't play Persona 6. I love that series, playing a new Persona game for the first time is an amazing experience, it kind of sucks I won't get to do that.

Will my date be pushed back? I'm not sure, but if for whatever reason I decide to do that, it won't be for long. I seriously can't do this anymore, tired of being in this hellhole, and I already tried everything I could.

That's it for me. If you're wondering why all my regrets are specifically regarding media and not the people in my life, the answer is complicated, I guess. There's some people I love and admire but being around them brings me nothing but pain, probably because I can't function around anyone at all, and I can't understand why.

 

[LocalAngel]

1. i won't see season 2 of chainsawman. A shame.
2. I won't be able to explore my local city more. Covid has killed any aspirations of trying and i'm not about to wait for it to disappear.
3. i won't be able to see heartbound completed.
4. I won't have completed any of the persona games. A crime shame.

5. i won't be able to complete my goal of becoming a musician. A lot of raw talent, according to my old music teacher.
6. I won't be able to say goodbye to my partner, because i won't be telling her i'm leaving. I feel horrible about that. But i'll leave behind a detailed note to make me feel better, hopefully.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

If I go in April, I won't play the new Zelda game or see the live action Little Mermaid movie. I'm trying to mentally free myself of attachments in general because there are things I'm loathe to give up.

Of course regret about these things or anything else will be irrelevant once I'm dead.

 

[birdofafeather]

I've always wanted to be a musician. I was, I guess, but I still want to write something. My life and brain were just too loud, too overwhelming to ever even finish a piece, and my perfectionism made me burn everything I've ever created. I wanted to leave behind some semblance of evidence of my existence. I know it's all inherently meaningless but I want people to see me scream into the void. To listen to my creations, as I have listened to so many others.
So many people have told me I fit the "tortured artist" archetype, as I am so open about my struggle (too open even, to the point that no one takes me seriously anymore), and that was the only validation I ever received for my mental illness. So I wanted to leave something to fit that, I guess.

 

[CringeNihilism]

I won't regret missing something bc I've made up my mind long time ago. If I want to do something or have dreams or keep on holding to life, that alone indicates that I am not ready to CTB.

 

[DrivenSneeze1]

yeah I don't think I could do it until I've seen HxH, Chainsaw Man and Mushoku Tensei animated. I love these so much they're worth living for even i f nothing else is. it's nice to know other people think of this stuff too lol

 

[Peerless_Cucumber]

Finish reading God of Deception. Also I feel like I need to publish at least one book before I go.

 

[lionetta12]

Warning: This thread is not meant to discourage anyone. Please do what is right for you, whatever that might be.

So I'm planning to go in August, as still I have some things to sort out. Here's some stuff I'll regret not getting to see, from most regret to least:

1. I won't see Hunter x Hunter being completed. Pretty much one of the best pieces of media I've seen out of anime/manga, and there's no way it'll be done by August
2. The Community movie. I'm a big fan and the filming is gonna begin in the summer, so it won't be out by then. That sucks big time.
3. No season 4 of The Boys for me, it'll be out late 2023/early 2024. I was excited to see where the story would go, but there's no way I will.
4. I won't play Persona 6. I love that series, playing a new Persona game for the first time is an amazing experience, it kind of sucks I won't get to do that.

Will my date be pushed back? I'm not sure, but if for whatever reason I decide to do that, it won't be for long. I seriously can't do this anymore, tired of being in this hellhole, and I already tried everything I could.

That's it for me. If you're wondering why all my regrets are specifically regarding media and not the people in my life, the answer is complicated, I guess. There's some people I love and admire but being around them brings me nothing but pain, probably because I can't function around anyone at all, and I can't understand why.

If I suicided today I'd regret not getting married.

 

[arcadia]

Yeah 100% agreed on Persona 6 and dark continent in hxh

 

[Source Energy]

Absolutely nothing.

I won't regret missing something bc I've made up my mind long time ago. If I want to do something or have dreams or keep on holding to life, that alone indicates that I am not ready to CTB.

this exactly. No more dreams. Ready to fly.

 

[death's lover]

I've always wanted to be a musician. I was, I guess, but I still want to write something. My life and brain were just too loud, too overwhelming to ever even finish a piece, and my perfectionism made me burn everything I've ever created. I wanted to leave behind some semblance of evidence of my existence. I know it's all inherently meaningless but I want people to see me scream into the void. To listen to my creations, as I have listened to so many others.
So many people have told me I fit the "tortured artist" archetype, as I am so open about my struggle (too open even, to the point that no one takes me seriously anymore), and that was the only validation I ever received for my mental illness. So I wanted to leave something to fit that, I guess.

As a person who also wants to be a musician I feel you

 

[Himalayan]

1-nothing
2-nothing
3-nothing
4-nothing

 

[WaitingToGo]

I'll miss my beautiful cats. That's all

 

[One Sad Donkey]

i'll "regret" not forming an intimate connection with another person or developing my digital art skill to create something I'm proud of. but I have no hope that I'll accomplish either of those tasks, so I can't say I'd "regret" them if I CTB

there's some video games/shows/webcomics that I'd enjoy if I was alive, but they're not exactly worth living for in my mind. like if they released a new danganronpa game, I'd definitely play it ASAP and probably really enjoy it, but I'm not gonna live for the purpose of waiting for something like that

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing. I simply don't wish to exist at all, it's a burden to be conscious and aware and such a thing only leads to more suffering. All that I've ever wished for is permanent nonexistence, the thought of such a thing is so incredibly ideal to me, I just despise existing and being in this world could never really appeal to me.

 

[TAW122]

I would rather CTB to avoid the pain of long term suffering at the cost of missing some pleasant (yet fleeting) moments of joy and fun that would be irrelevant once I'm dead. However, to answer the question (if I'm still around in the coming years, which I hope not), then it would be missing out future Touhou series. @Nacht would know what I mean. I do wish to see more characters and how long the series can keep going.

 

[Grayfield]

I wanted to visit Angkor Wat in Cambodia, and travel to Great Britain. Too bad.

 

[ascarto]

I'd miss going to the States with my mother, also to not see having my brother at home again

Also to see the sunrise here in my hometown and to eat good food as i'd be no longer in the physical

 

[DeathToSpiesSMERSH]

1. The new War Thunder updates, they always add neat vehicles to play around with
2. My sister passing uni
3. Me passing uni
4. Never visiting the places I wanted to, always wanted to go to the Panzermuseum in Germany and Saumur tank museum in France

 

[ThisIsLife]

Also I feel like I need to publish at least one book before I go.

That's funny cause i told myself the exact same thing recently

 

[Fl4u]

I'll never get to read The Winds of Winter.

 

[Amber1974!!]

It's impossible to regret anything once you are dead. You are not conscious and will not even know you are dead let alone regret anything

 

[eternalbliss22]

Once I'm gone I'll have no regrets, no pain, no suffering, no being spied on or manipulated or gaslit or harassed, because I'll no longer exist. The only thing I care about are my little furry ones, but I'll leave instructions & the animal shelter here is a no kill so they'll go to foster homes. My body will feed other living creatures

 

[WeepingWillow]

Causing pain to my Mom/other loved ones. They don't deserve to suffer because of my actions. I already feel like I put them through so much.

 

[Viranamari]

Nothing. There is simply nothing that can prevent my desire to CTB as It is something I have been thinking of since I was 10 years old. But if there is anything I regret, it would be not being able to spend time with my loved ones or even with people who appear to care for me whether or not their concern is genuine, their acting is good so it still counts for me.

 

[Grav]

I would miss seeing what my daughter becomes as an adult. There's some museums and battlefields I would like to see but probably never will.

 

[Murasa]

I won't be able to be there for my younger sister like my older siblings did with me, I won't be able to be alongside my pets until the end, I'm not going to be able to finish some of the costumes I've been working on for quite some time, there are some works which I will not be able to see their end and I can never travel on my own terms.

 

[stoopid]

Would love to play gta6 or watch chainsawman s2, and fk the guy up who was partly involved to fk my life up, but in case of God might be real I try to avoid it.

 

[sorrowed_ender]

If I were to ctb now, I would never be able to meet my partner irl. we are long distance on the opposite ends of our state. we have talked about meeting up and living together. I think the reason why Im so set on suicidal ideation NOW is because of the fact Im not with them. they are my light. they are the sun to my moon, the sapphire to my ruby. I love them dearly. I think once I finally get to live with them for the rest of my life, I think thats when I'll delete my account if I dont ctb in the next few months or years. Thats the reason why I'm still here. all for the sake of Them.

 

[aomame]

I won't regret missing something bc I've made up my mind long time ago. If I want to do something or have dreams or keep on holding to life, that alone indicates that I am not ready to CTB.

I feel the same way.
There's no point in wanting to do things that I could never accomplish, so I don't have any dreams anymore.
I've done everything I wanted to do (that was manageable), and I don't have the energy to pick other things I would like to do before I CTB. I'm already in terms with it.