yehxlder.666
Paranoid Android
- Sep 22, 2024
- 46
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Namelesa
Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
- Sep 21, 2024
- 1,915
Well I can't exactly have any feelings about my life if I am dead as I can't feel anything in non-existence but what I would feel before me dying would be relieve in that I no longer have to suffer. I would have some regrets about not being able to do some things and have felt like I could have done better (even tho logically I have tried really hard in everything that I wanted to do) but I know that won't really matter to me as I will be dead soon.
-nobodyknows-
I will face my fate.
- Jun 16, 2024
- 726
Yes. I believe it is better to live for a short period of time than to survive for a long one. Even if doing so ends up killing me in the end.
yehxlder.666
Paranoid Android
- Sep 22, 2024
- 46
So you tried, that's what matter the most. I wish you can find peace<3
Yeah, i'd surely prefer a short good life over a long one. You enjoy things better when they're short, you give it more value.
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dust-in-the-wind
Animal Lover
- Aug 24, 2024
- 695
My life was really good during periods of remission from major depressive disorder.im 55 now and need to die.
ShatteredSerenity
I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
- Nov 24, 2024
- 676
I would feel really sad that my life came to this, but now is the right time to go.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 8,958
I'd feel I had wasted it. Could have/should have done so much more, done so much better. Had the capability to have done better. Didn't take chances when they appeared. Wallowed in too much self pity for far too long. Made too many mistakes. In the blink of an eye one day your eyes open and it's just too late. It's just way too late for anything now. But, I still don't want any do-overs, either, even if it were possible. I've seen enough of this shit-hole place.
I tried my best, until I couldn't. I don't have the strength to keep trying.
genie
Member
- Aug 26, 2024
- 91
human909
Banned
- Dec 30, 2024
- 593
charcoalcat
The only thing humans are equal in is death
- Apr 17, 2018
- 124
Absolutely not. If only I could turn back the time. Sometimes one single decision can alter the entire trajectory of your life. However I believe in determinism and if I were to travel back in time without my present memory my life would still end up right where I am now.
Anne Alias
tired.
- Feb 11, 2025
- 39
Gstreater
Student
- Aug 10, 2024
- 155
I don't know if I gave it my best, I tried though. Tried to be happy and it didn't work and I think that's enough for me personally.
pthnrdnojvsc
Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
- Aug 12, 2019
- 3,470
this all my opinion. i don't see any value or that anything matters except me avoiding unbearable pain.
imo no matter what i or any human would have done in their life it won't matter because in 150 years everything they did wil be forgotten , in 150 years every human alive now will be dead as if they never existed, forgotten. in 1000 years will anything anyone did matter? will anything matter in 10,000 years , in a trillion years? nothing matters
also on top of that i just see a me and a human as just cells, chemical reactions a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain. that makes things even less meaningfull and more of a horror not something to condone . life is extreme torture an evil imposition prison slavery
imo no matter what i or any human would have done in their life it won't matter because in 150 years everything they did wil be forgotten , in 150 years every human alive now will be dead as if they never existed, forgotten. in 1000 years will anything anyone did matter? will anything matter in 10,000 years , in a trillion years? nothing matters
also on top of that i just see a me and a human as just cells, chemical reactions a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain. that makes things even less meaningfull and more of a horror not something to condone . life is extreme torture an evil imposition prison slavery
I would think that i deserved better. My life changed for the worse at age 6-7 and the life/person I was meant to be died, and I didn't deserve that. I would feel sadness that I had a wasted life
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,590
I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, non-existence is all I hope for and is all that can bring me peace, I just want to finally forget about this cruel, torturous existence I see as just causing so much harm and suffering, for me non-existence is all that's positive as only in non-existence can I find safety from suffering. I just find it tragic how I had to suffer in this existence at all when never existing was perfection, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence, if it's up to me I'd choose to completely erase my existence, I see existence as an abomination and I'd always prefer to peacefully not exist than be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, to me existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it.
sadalways
My birth was an error
- Sep 5, 2024
- 293
I didn't give it my best. Nor do i even want to anymore, the only thing i did try my best in is overcoming anxiety but it only gets worse and i lost hope of things getting better. If meds and years of psychiatrist help can't do anything, nothing can. And i'm starting to accept the fact that i just cannot be helped even if some miracle happened.
I'd pity myself and others that we lost key family members early on. I'd remember their love and the happy times but then, I'd be sad because they are long gone now.
The rest of it was a whole mixture really. Some really shitty times and people if I'm honest. A (suspected) narcissist that created the feelings of ideation to begin with and all the coping mechanisms that produced to deal with it. Plus, the feeling that the main coping mechanism (being creative) did a sterling job the majority of my life but, was bound to struggle in this era that needs creative people less.
Overall, it would be that: asides from one or two personal regrets (that I didn't value or repay people that helped me greatly in life at the end of their lives,) life had a whole number of challenges and, I did my best to face them while I could. I probably could have been more successful. I don't know it would have made me happier though. I would have liked to have had a partner but, having a bad relationship would have been so much worse so- I'm pretty content with the decisions and priorities I made.
It will be nice to leave it all behind though. This life absolutely isn't worth working my arse off to sustain! I pretty much can't wait to say: 'F*ck this! I'm out!'
The rest of it was a whole mixture really. Some really shitty times and people if I'm honest. A (suspected) narcissist that created the feelings of ideation to begin with and all the coping mechanisms that produced to deal with it. Plus, the feeling that the main coping mechanism (being creative) did a sterling job the majority of my life but, was bound to struggle in this era that needs creative people less.
Overall, it would be that: asides from one or two personal regrets (that I didn't value or repay people that helped me greatly in life at the end of their lives,) life had a whole number of challenges and, I did my best to face them while I could. I probably could have been more successful. I don't know it would have made me happier though. I would have liked to have had a partner but, having a bad relationship would have been so much worse so- I'm pretty content with the decisions and priorities I made.
It will be nice to leave it all behind though. This life absolutely isn't worth working my arse off to sustain! I pretty much can't wait to say: 'F*ck this! I'm out!'
SmilingNoMore
Paragon
- Nov 25, 2024
- 956
I think I did my best, tried over and over again, made mistakes though, one big one in particular I wish I could undo.
How would I feel? Unaccomplished, unfinished, sad, regretful, upset, helpless and sometimes angry about how it turned out.
How would I feel? Unaccomplished, unfinished, sad, regretful, upset, helpless and sometimes angry about how it turned out.
Nervous young man
WARNING: Books may cause unseemly outbursts
- Feb 3, 2025
- 85
Pitiful, a pathetic and desperate exercise in futility and slow march through endless suffering that was only needlessly exacerbated by idiots parroting the same three words like dementia ridden old people. "It'll get better", I wish I could've told my past self that it wont and to never believe that bullshit. Everything I've done in my life I've squandered and debased thanks to being me. My life was nothing and my life amounts to nothing.
Well obviously I'd not think anything as I'd be dead-but to not be facetious, I would think:
Yes, I have genuinely tried my best, I've just failed completely. I think I lack the fundamental competence and qualities needed to succeed in the way I want to. Unfortunately now I have degraded to a point where I am largely dysfunctional and, while I am still exerting immense effort, from the outside it just looks like I'm lazy because I just...can't do anything, even the basics. I'm still trying, but I can't put the work in that I'd like to anymore as I just don't have the mental capacity.
Yes, I have genuinely tried my best, I've just failed completely. I think I lack the fundamental competence and qualities needed to succeed in the way I want to. Unfortunately now I have degraded to a point where I am largely dysfunctional and, while I am still exerting immense effort, from the outside it just looks like I'm lazy because I just...can't do anything, even the basics. I'm still trying, but I can't put the work in that I'd like to anymore as I just don't have the mental capacity.
Darkover
Archangel
- Jul 29, 2021
- 5,648
good riddance it all over with i wouldn't wish my life on anybody it been a living misery in hell
I will tell myself: well, i did my best, things turned in a hellish way overtime without being able to do anything about it.
i would have liked be happy and enjoy life but for some reasons out of my control it was not possible and it still not possible so i'm putting an end to it. I will propably remember some good moments as a kid and the hell that has been since 12 years old.
i would have liked be happy and enjoy life but for some reasons out of my control it was not possible and it still not possible so i'm putting an end to it. I will propably remember some good moments as a kid and the hell that has been since 12 years old.
restingplace
Aspiring corpse
- Mar 7, 2024
- 138
I am just so desperate to end things because my mom is dying and I want to pass before she does so I don't feel any emotional pain. And I was just fired from my job, the most important thing in the world to me. And my employment ends at the end of the month, I'm hoping to die before that happens.
