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dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
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I ask this question because so many young people on here say they want to die but are afraid of pain, failing and fear. Assisted suicide would eliminate pain and failing. But what about SI? Could you drink the fatal medication (in Canada i think its done thru IV but you have to pull the lever) knowing you will be dead soon after? No going back. Game over. I've watched many videos on YouTube that have done it. Albeit most were terminal ill, elderly or in chronic pain. Which makes the mental part easier to accept. All were at peace with their decision.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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I am 40, so not necessarily part of the "young" crowd. However, with both if my previous attempts, I was very calm and did not hesitate. If I could have the opportunity to have a supervised, sure fire method, hell I would probably be excited to die.
 
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insectontrial

Student
Jan 29, 2026
100
I am 40, so not necessarily part of the "young" crowd. However, with both if my previous attempts, I was very calm and did not hesitate. If I could have the opportunity to have a supervised, sure fire method, hell I would probably be excited to die.
Likewise. I've never felt that "instant regret" many of the anti-suicide campaigners talk about.

I'm 26, though I've been told I act/come across like someone of middle age.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
917
Absolutely! I even went so far looking at the euthanasia sites. I would empty my account and pay whatever they ask just to exit this place!
 
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Headfirsst_ForHalos

New Member
Jun 19, 2025
2
I'm 19 years old and absolutely I would. If it's in a medical setting it would even feel as if my pain is immediately validated, and that I'm not crazy for wanting to die.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
992
I ask this question because so many young people on here say they want to die but are afraid of pain, failing and fear. Assisted suicide would eliminate pain and failing. But what about SI? Could you drink the fatal medication (in Canada i think its done thru IV but you have to pull the lever) knowing you will be dead soon after? No going back. Game over. I've watched many videos on YouTube that have done it. Albeit most were terminal ill, elderly or in chronic pain. Which makes the mental part easier to accept. All were at peace with their decision.
Seeing those videos, seeing the genuine, unforced peace on their faces... it changes the narrative from "giving up" to "stepping out." For me, the answer is a resounding yes. I can absolutely see myself taking that final drink or activating the IV. The "no going back" part isn't a threat, it's the ultimate relief. It's the finality that makes the peace possible.
 
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purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
356
100%
If I get pentobarbital on prescription everything would be do much easier.

I have 500 bucks of suicide equipment here...
And I still feel conflicted because SN and Helium both have their nasty side effects
 
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endboss

endboss

Member
Apr 8, 2026
65
In a heartbeat.
 
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Nolongerlive

Member
Feb 28, 2026
98
I am 55 , if allowed, will 100% go for it.
 
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froggirl9000

9,000,000 LIVE FROGS
Feb 4, 2023
1,798
Nope. At best, if barbiturates were available, I'd get them just to use them recreationally, or as an anti-anxiety drug like they're intended.
If I had access to guns, on the other hand, it'd be a different story. I've always liked suicide by gunshot the most; it isn't just that I want the pain to be over, I want complete control over my death, including the means. I don't want some doctor injecting me with something, I want to blow my brains out.
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
439
yes i would be exicited as F. probally my family not so much but they can understand
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,775
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Earthfree

Member
Jun 22, 2025
6
100%
If I get pentobarbital on prescription everything would be do much easier.

I have 500 bucks of suicide equipment here...
And I still feel conflicted because SN and Helium both have their nasty side effects
Any forums on SN effects?
 
starboy2k

starboy2k

whhaazzzzzuuupppp
May 21, 2025
475
Without a fucking doubt. 🥳
 
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rainatthebusstop

rainatthebusstop

feel free to kill me
Aug 20, 2025
215
Yes. Who wouldn't wanna take the easy exit when it would be presented to them?
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,698
I used to think I would but since the change in my circumstance, though I am still suicidal on my bad days (which probably balance 50/50 with my good days) I cannot. I cannot do that to my son. So ... I stay. And I cry in the shower. And I drink when I take my pain meds so it helps a little bit better -- Though I have to be careful because if I test hot on a urine sample they will drop me. It is ridiculous -- they admit they have the ability to control my pain better than they do but because the fucking feds stick their noses in EVERYTHING I have to just "gut it out" ... "It will be fine" ... I sincerely hope every single medical professional who has told me that shit winds up exactly where I am now. Hurting so bad they cannot live their life on any given day and not able to get adequate pain control ...
 
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Hefinator

Member
Nov 19, 2025
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I ask this question because so many young people on here say they want to die but are afraid of pain, failing and fear. Assisted suicide would eliminate pain and failing. But what about SI? Could you drink the fatal medication (in Canada i think its done thru IV but you have to pull the lever) knowing you will be dead soon after? No going back. Game over. I've watched many videos on YouTube that have done it. Albeit most were terminal ill, elderly or in chronic pain. Which makes the mental part easier to accept. All were at peace with their decision.
Yes.
 
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unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,176
I think I'm eligible because of all my disabilities. But spending CHF 10,000 is problematic. And I don't really want to die being assisted. I'd like to order N and do it at home. Between taking SN (which costs around 30€) and having a peaceful death with N in Switzerland, I think I'd prefere to give that huge amount of money to someone who really needs it and take SN, even if it's not peaceful. I can still change my mind, I dunno for the moment. Athanasios asks CHF 100 for a request and I think I'll start with that. They seem to be more open than other right to die organizations.
 
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wavydxebec

New Member
Apr 28, 2026
3
I would. Pain and failing are probably my main concerns, but if it's SI, then I think it'd be easy to come to terms with that.
 
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name2come

Member
Sep 30, 2025
40
Oh, gosh, absolutely.

I actually think disability advocates make a compelling case about the problems with a lot of "Medical Aid in Dying" regimes being fundamentally ableist insofar as they are making a social judgment that certain lives aren't worth living and we've seen more than a few cases where people were suggested MAID options which should virtually never happen. No one should even feel a hint of pressure to end their life.

Where I differ is that I think the ideal solution is opening up assisted suicide to anyone. I know a few places have been cautiously opening options for people with chronic mental problems and a lot of people recoil in disgust at this, but in a lot of ways I find this a more honest application of assisted suicide. I certainly agree that as a society we should have considerably more resources available to people struggling with mental illness, but that is a problem not being solved any time soon and I don't think it should preclude people facing the reality that exists now from making a choice to end their lives. Yes, there are bigger problems to deal with, but that shouldn't preclude empathy for people here and now who are in anguish. We have the capacity to make that journey safer and less anxiety inducing and we don't do it because as a society we want to foster that desperation and panic. I just find that so cruel and inhuman. I can understand wanting a healthy waiting period to mitigate the risks of an acute crisis resoluting in a permanent remedy, but I dearly wish we could trust ALL people to make those choices for themselves.
 
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dreamofnofuture

dreamofnofuture

Member
Apr 19, 2026
12
Likewise. I've never felt that "instant regret" many of the anti-suicide campaigners talk about.

I'm 26, though I've been told I act/come across like someone of middle age.
Same with the never feeling the instant regret thing. I actually felt peaceful with my last one and wasn't in any pain or anything. I was just hallucinating like crazy, but I wasn't scared.

I feel like that's only a feeling that people who are temporarily/short-term suicidal, and can very easily solve their suicidal ideation by ✨just having more friends✨or ✨going to therapy✨ or ✨exercising✨🤗🥺.

They seem to think CTBing is impulsive bc they themselves were impulsive with it. Many of us here are entirely prepared to die and have reconciled what death means to us bc we've had years to do so, so medically assisted euthanasia is a no-brainer.
 
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lonergirl_26

Student
Sep 1, 2024
152
I'm 20 and absolutely would do it. Maybe not int the traditional way that it is done. I wouldn't want someone else to do it for me. I'd like to have the 'special potion' and do it myself.
 
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BlackMilk

Member
Sep 3, 2021
14
Oh, gosh, absolutely.

I actually think disability advocates make a compelling case about the problems with a lot of "Medical Aid in Dying" regimes being fundamentally ableist insofar as they are making a social judgment that certain lives aren't worth living and we've seen more than a few cases where people were suggested MAID options which should virtually never happen. No one should even feel a hint of pressure to end their life.

Where I differ is that I think the ideal solution is opening up assisted suicide to anyone. I know a few places have been cautiously opening options for people with chronic mental problems and a lot of people recoil in disgust at this, but in a lot of ways I find this a more honest application of assisted suicide. I certainly agree that as a society we should have considerably more resources available to people struggling with mental illness, but that is a problem not being solved any time soon and I don't think it should preclude people facing the reality that exists now from making a choice to end their lives. Yes, there are bigger problems to deal with, but that shouldn't preclude empathy for people here and now who are in anguish. We have the capacity to make that journey safer and less anxiety inducing and we don't do it because as a society we want to foster that desperation and panic. I just find that so cruel and inhuman. I can understand wanting a healthy waiting period to mitigate the risks of an acute crisis resoluting in a permanent remedy, but I dearly wish we could trust ALL people to make those choices for themselves.
I find myself in the same frame of mind. I can understand the social risks and why disability groups are so opposed to it, but I also have to consider my own state of mind and make my own choice. That being said, the taboo of suicide is far older than eugenics and disability rights. In ancient times, it meant one less farmhand and the end of that person's ability to produce any further offspring. And, strangely, most people seem to genuinely enjoy their daily life and find it irrational that anyone in their right mind could feel different. Defying the will to live is something few even consider, let alone undertake.
 
nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
885
I am almost 40. I would have done it long time ago, if it was available to me. The only thing preventing me from doing it on my own, is the pain and the possible failure. Assisted ctb eliminates those. So I'd do it very eagerly.
 
Lextyle

Lextyle

What is this - Life?
Apr 6, 2026
211
I'm 20 and absolutely would do it. Maybe not int the traditional way that it is done. I wouldn't want someone else to do it for me. I'd like to have the 'special potion' and do it myself.
That is exactly how assisted suicide works. They give you the medication and you self-administer it.
 
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peacebenow

Member
Apr 26, 2026
19
I am on this website because I don't qualify for MAID yet and seeking my own version of it. So, yes.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,192
I'd be long gone from this dreadful, torturous and deeply undesirable existence if I had such, all I want is peace from the suffering, torture and cruelty of this dreadful evil existence that just harms and tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and to suffer in this existence is just the most terrible mistake to me.

I see it as so terrible how this existence was imposed causing all this torture as a result, to suffer in this existence is just the most dreadful abomination to me and the fact that there isn't the option to just cease existing painlessly and never suffer again is just so criminal to me, for me non-existence is just all that's positive. All I want is to be permanently unconscious with all gone and forgotten, I'll always see existence as the problem and I always suffer from being trapped in this torturous, painful existence that never should had been imposed no matter what.
 
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