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persepexa

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Feb 7, 2025
70
I always think if I could go back and have a second chance what kind of person would I like to be. I think I would like to be more confident and sure in myself. Unafraid to be myself and not care what people think. I would embrace the things that make me 'me'. I would be more adventurous for sure. I would try new things. I would be more appreciative of the people in my life and treat them better. I wouldn't spend so much time thinking about the things I don't have. I would be kinder. I would work harder. I would try and make a better life for myself. But then again if I suddenly woke up and I was 16 again I would probably make the same mistakes again and again.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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An aborted or miscarried pregnancy would suit me fine. I don't fancy experiencing life under any circumstances again.
 
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persepexa

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Feb 7, 2025
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An aborted or miscarried pregnancy would suit me fine. I don't fancy experiencing life under any circumstances again.
I don't think life is awful at all. For me at least, I think it could have been nice. I just ruined every chance at happiness I ever had. I am sorry things have been so difficult for you.
 
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shironeko

shironeko

Misfortune incarnate
Sep 9, 2024
46
I'd rather not restart
 
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Unicron

Member
Oct 28, 2021
90
I'd like to add forty years on to my age, not take forty off. The thought of doing all this again fills me with dread.
 
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closetoyou

closetoyou

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Aug 19, 2025
34
very egotistical to say, but i feel like i would've accomplished so much if i had a better upbringing and people to actually support me. put same old me in a place with a better support system ig
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,380
I wouldn't wish to be anything, all I want is to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, all I wish for is peace from the suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, I always wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all.
 
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WhyAmIHereHonestly

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Oct 11, 2025
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probably someone with a functioning brain lol. feels sad i was born with things i simply cant change, or want to. i just wanna be me but also not be me. if you get what i mean
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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very egotistical to say, but i feel like i would've accomplished so much if i had a better upbringing and people to actually support me. put same old me in a place with a better support system ig
This all day! Either that or I wish I would have had the spine to tell my family to kiss my ass and left them when I was 18. It would have been difficult, but I think I would be in a much better place now.

It is not egotistical. Our upbringing and support system can have a massive role in how we think and act. Years of therapy and careful introspection have revealed to me how my parents destroyed my self-confidence and therefore my chances of achieving quite a bit in life.
 
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a.hamza.13

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Apr 15, 2024
66
I think if I'd have the chance to go back and start it again I'd make the same mistakes again 'cause me and the world would be the same. I just can't be myself in this fuckin' world. I always have to betray my values. By the way, I always wanted to become a great person. I wanted to live by the rules. I wanted to become the best. I wanted to become a great scientist, engineer and innovator but above all I wanted to become a man of good character. 🥲
 
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Lost Wife

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Mar 31, 2025
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I would be a bird. Any bird, I don't care. I eat, or get eaten, I can fly and maybe I have a flock. I don't want to be a human ever again.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Enlightened
May 7, 2025
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If I could truly go back and do everything again... I would go back and stop listening to myself whenever I thought I should try. I would instead keep my head down. Just do what I had to do to maintain a job and pay the bills. Never reach out to make friends or attract a romantic partner. I would politely ignore anyone who ever approached me in friendship or anything else. Just keep my nose clean, head down, and tread water. I wouldn't be happy, but I would never have been miserable.
 
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Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
251
I wouldn't wish to be anything, all I want is to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, all I wish for is peace from the suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, I always wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all.
Tbh this, every word could have been written by me.
 
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Off_Switch

Student
Aug 15, 2025
152
I would choose to be an aborted fetus. Human existence is whack. Even for people with good lives, it's a daily struggle.
 
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scordatura

scordatura

Emptiness
Sep 12, 2025
20
If I could start again, I'd want to become a saturation diver, I like the thought of working construction and repairs at the bottom of the ocean, and it seems like a purposeful job. I'd train to do it now if it wasn't for needing to be considered psychologically sound, or join the military, but same thing, I can't go down that route cause I'm not "mentally stable." I don't want to discourage getting help from mental health services, but in cases like this, it screws you over.
 
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snooperdooper

snooperdooper

Student
Jan 27, 2024
129
Nice. I would be a person who is unyieldingly kind to everyone, spreading positivity wherever I go. And self aware. Oh god how the realization of how un-self aware I had been my entire life and how much of an asshole that made me look caused me to completely self isolate. I just want the chance to do something with this brain I love in a body which I can also love.
 
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